Got a necklace, a card, and a single red rose. Also a sushi dinner ( Read more... )

The other night I had yet another dream. I was one of the housewives of orange county and then I was part of T.I's road to redemption, but then the next minute I was watching it. Weird ( Read more... )

So last night I had another weird dream, but no pregnancy this time. Instead there was a party and who happened to show up? Nate with his gf. I was with Morgan and Audi. Matty was out of town for the summer. Nate looked hella different wearing a black and red checkered button up with glasses and he had long hair again. In the dream he was drunk and ( Read more... )

So last night I had the most realistic dream. I dreamt that I took a pregnancy test and it came up positive. I was freaking out and I didn't know what to do. I was afraid to tell Matty and my mom. I wasn't sure if I should get an abortion, keep the baby, or give it up for adoption. My thought process was I can't have a baby right now, but then if I ( Read more... )

So it's tax/flu season. I'm just waiting on my CheckFree W2 and I'm good to file. I think I'm gonna end up owing because after last year I claimed 10%, but it was only for five months. Then after that I didn't have a legit job so we'll see, I hate taxes. On another note I got my booklet for the postal service so I need to study my ass off, pass the ( Read more... )

I've been in a sad, love song/romantic comedy movie mood. Plus tragedy because you can't have one without the other. Also I've been in a woman empowering song mood as well. It's probably because I'm about to start the PMS process, I can feel it. Also the paranoia is setting in which is the worst part. I constantly think Matty's going to find ( Read more... )

I'm not always good with words and I tend to laugh when I'm nervous. I usually wait for the guy to make the first move because I don't want come off too strong. I won't always say what's on my mind unless I'm inebriated and even then I'm selective. I tend to put myself down on and second guess myself as well, but I'm working on that day by day. I'm ( Read more... )

So it's 2009 or 200shine as the Iowa boys have expressed or 200grime by the Cali boys' standards, but I'm done with shitty years ( Read more... )

The insecurities have set in, but I know I shouldn't play into them. This always happens after the two month mark and then again at five. I'm pmsing and not feeling attractive. This month just hasn't been for me. Too much tragedy and bullshit, but there's been a bright side as well ( Read more... )

We met on September 26th which was Milynn's 21st birthday. It was at 301 and he came up to me. He saw me standing by Audi and he asked why I didn't have a drink. I told him I didn't have any money and he offered to buy me a drink so of course I accepted. During the night drinks were drank and we flirted. He ended up taking me home and we spent the ( Read more... )