Well I put up 100 bucks to file papers to try and get my boys back from their father. The last time I had the boys, the weekend ended with the cops being called. The day after tomorrow will make three months since I lost my best friend and it's not getting any easier, I miss that man like crazy. I spend lots of time with his family to try and ( Read more... )

Why the hell is it that good people have such shit luck in life? If things don't get better soon I am going to go on a permanent vacation and tell no one where the hell I am at.

Well there has been alot of shit that has happened if you have read my earlier entries you know that I have lost my grandmother, my best friend, and my ex took custody of my boys. Well let's see what else can I tell you about that past few months. I started a new job in April, I am working as a bartender in Kingston, Jason and I celebrated one ( Read more... )

It has been a month and a half since I lost my best friend and people always say that it gets easier with time, I am not finding that to be true in this case. When I lost my grandma in June I dealt with that easier than I am with Joel's death. I know that sounds crude but my grandma was suffering with brain cancer and she was in alot of pain, she ( Read more... )

I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and your picture in a frame. Your memory my keepsake, with which I will never part. God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart ( Read more... )

Tuesday, July 5, 2005 ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I have updated my journal, so I thought it was time. I have experienced two great losses since I last updated. In June I lost my grandmother to brain cancer. She was only 69 years old. Fourth of July weekend I lost my best friend Joel, he was only 29, he drown while swimming in Lake Huron in Port Sanilac. We buried ( Read more... )

My man and his dad are heavy into drag racing and are currently getting a 69 Camaro ready for the 2005 season. They haven't been able to race in the past three years do to medical issues and money issues caused by those medical issues. Well this year when they go to the track they won't just be spectators. I can't wait for the season to start, I ( Read more... )

This sucks the big one. I haven't got to see Jason since Tuesday. I had to work Wed-Fri and I don't get to see him on the days I work, and now we get all this damn snow and I can't make it out to see him and he can't make it here to see me cause his road is drifted badly. He lives on the worst damn road, they never plow the son of a bitch. ( Read more... )

Actually I have a question in two parts, the question is this I have been with Jason for seven months and I love him with all my heart, am I crazy for thinking I am ready to marry him and if I'm not crazy would I be crazy to be the one to ask? It's not like I have only known him for the past seven months we have known each other for 13 years.