fuck my life ( Read more... )

Great. It's December already and have I lost weight? Erm no. Im shit. I drunken binge, I don't do any work. Im a massive failure at life. My life is going to be shit. Something great to look forward to ( Read more... )

tomorrow is the start of a new month. 2 days before I go back to uni. Im going to lose 10lbs this month. I am ( Read more... )

so much for recovery.... I just can't decide if i want it or not, I want to stop b/p but also want to lose loads more weight. Is it bad that Im going back to uni with the healthy attitude of working hard and making a load of new friends, but also just as much the unhealthy attitude of losing as much weight as i possibly can, and im pretty sure I ( Read more... )

yes Im defo going back to uni, no way am I better but who cares I can't stand being at home anymore I need my space and my life back. Weighed this morning and I was 49kg. wooop. obvs not low enough but Im ok hanging around that weight so long as I don't go any higher. and I don't think I should lose too much just before going back incase my doc ( Read more... )

omg I don't know... Im so confused. I really do want to go back to Uni even though I know im not better, but I just can't stay at home any longer with my parents watching my every move. And im sure they're arguing at the mo, they never do normally arrg its all my fault because theyre worried about me ( Read more... )

Just come home from a weekend in Somerset where I was visiting a friend who is working on a summer camp there. It looks like so much fun, I was going to do it too but then my doctor said I wasn't well enough...but on the plus side she said they eat loads and she's put weight on so im glad I didn't do it ( Read more... )

I've just binged. Why? I don't know. maybe because my therapist said I wasn't well enough to go back to Uni yet and that i need to try harder. she thinks im holding onto my bulimia because I want it to define me... do i? I just don't know. Im embarassed by it, i hate it so much, i want to be normal again so badly but i find it unachievable. I just ( Read more... )

 
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I FUCKING LOVE THE GYM ( Read more... )