I got rid of Will. He turned out to be nothing more than a smooth talking douchebag. He wasn't what I wanted- not at all fulfilling mentally or sexually. We just weren't connected on any level. Some of that may have been my fault because I wasn't open to connecting with anyone who wasn't Josh.

On that note, Josh and I are back to well, Josh and I. ( Read more... )

Sometimes girls are a horrible bunch of people. We're mean, jealous, bitchy, and downright deceptive. We can't be trusted, at least when it comes to our dealings with other girls.

Enter Fido (obviously not her real name, but appropriate nonetheless). 
Fido is this wacko chick from Will's past. From stories I gather she and him fooled around, and ( Read more... )

I love being the object of someone's affection. For so long I have been the one showing all the emotion, just waiting for the return that rarely came. But with Will, it's so different. I'm constantly surprised by him, but my insecurities sometimes get the best of me.

3 weeks ago it was super bowl weekend. A text to him on thursday before was ( Read more... )

I have let myself settle for far too long.

I was talking to a coworker today, reminiscing about past boyfriends- she's only 18 to my 24, and was telling me how different is was with the guy before the current. How she misses being giddy and excited to see her boyfriend, and him being the same towards her. It made me think- I hadn't felt that way  ( Read more... )

When I have an issue I feel is being ignored, the issue just seems to bother me more. For example, with Josh as of late, all I wanted to do was talk to him about what's going on with us. This thing where we act as a couple (minus actually being together physically of course given the distance) but aren't a couple simply because it hasn't been ( Read more... )

I feel less bad about one night stands. 
Yes, I would be angry if the ex hooked up randomly. And I would expect that he might be if he heard I had. However, I would be more angry if he actually were involved in a relationship because he has constantly told me that the primary reason we are not in one, is because he doesn't have the time or ability ( Read more... )

So, the ex and I have been speaking on an increasingly regular basis. He calls and we talk for hours on end and more often than not it ends in phone sex. The difference though seems to be that we have returned to talking more within our realm of experience, and less about the outlandish kink fantasies we had turned to before our breakup.

For the ( Read more... )

I haven't been with many guys but since that first sexual experience the july after I graduated I have been well, curious. My first kiss on my couch that summer made my body react in ways that were new and fun and I wanted to know what was next. Not two months after that kiss, I had sex for the first time and since that time each new experience, ( Read more... )

Last night I got home around midnight and almost as soon as I walked in the door and sat down, the phone rang. I was surprised to see that once again it was my ex calling. When we first met (via computer... thank you myspace) we spent hours on end on the phone. The sun often came up before we went to bed and I've come to miss those conversations. ( Read more... )

Last sunday, I called my long-distance ex because it had been a while since we talked. Since our break-up, phone calls have been strained and awkward but we were both trying hard to stay in touch and get passed it. This was the first call when things seemed... normal. He talked to me about what's going on with me, told me all about what he's up to ( Read more... )