I am going to paste a past entry, because it is basically how I am feeling tonight ( Read more... )

Somebody please help me!!! I need to get out of here, the more I am alone with my thoughts, the worse things get for me. My mood changes happen much more often and have become more severe. And I fear that if things don't change, and soon, I will start to lose people who are very, very close to me. I cannot let this happen. I need to find some ( Read more... )

Okay so last night was very interesting to say the least. I got a call from Beka at 7:30 to play Wheel of Fortune :) I usually kick ass at that but last night we actually tied. Go her. So then at around 8:30 I grabbed the board shorts and headed to the jacuzzi...nice. When I get there I am all alone, about 15 minutes later a group of people ( Read more... )

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart ( Read more... )

All I can say is I really need a job. I mean like really really bad. I have applied at like 20 places now, and so far I have had 2 call backs. 2 out of 20 kinda sucks. Ad if this thing with tilly's does not go thrught then I have no clue what I will do. I may just end up going to the Target on Lincoln with Ryan and Brittany. Who knows. Well ( Read more... )

Okay, no more Boy Meets World for me. I liked that show when I could relate to it. But now, everythig that is on that show I once had but eventually lost. So the topic for today is my brother. Yes many of you did not know I had a brother, and technically I don't. He is my step brother. But I miss having that brother to brother relationship. ( Read more... )

SO last night...no sleep, and you would figure that I would be tired. But on the contrary, I am far from tired. I have more energy right now than I know what to do with. So my day started at around 7 ish with a very nice morning run. Three miles, not my usual but it is a start. After that I came home and sit crunch and push up sets for about ( Read more... )

Well it is the closing of yet another day and on to another sleepless night. And in parting I leave you with the words of Ozzy Osbourne ( Read more... )

I need to get out of this place. I need to go somewhere, anywhere. I just can not be here, alone with my thoughts. But I have no where to go. I am stuck. And the people that are really the only ones who can help me are rather distant I have no idea why. Who knows, maybe things will get better for me.

As the rain comes down ( Read more... )