I had been searching for my video camera, and I finally found it. In the tape deck was the tape from my graduation and the after party. I could not help but smile, and then cry, but not one of those good, happy memories kind of crying, but the kind when you realize everything you hav lost. The things you once had and still want. I was happy ( Read more... )

And as usual we have another sleepless night. My mind will never let me sleep. And if I do sleep I only have bad dreams, dreams I pray never come true. Will my mind ever be at rest or will I be doomed to forever live the life I have now? A life of lies, a life that really has no meaning. An act, and I am its main player. The outside world is ( Read more... )

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If I ever had any good luck in my life, it is now all gone. Today had to be one of the worst days in a long, long time. It started off horrible. I was finally able to fall asleep around 5 due to a lot of things running through my mind, only to be awakened by a very fat man asking to borrow some electricity...WHAT THE FUCK!!!! It was 7:30 in the ( Read more... )

My nights seem to get longer, my sleep becomes shorter, my dreams are more harsh than usual. I need to be saved from my own mind. I let my mind wander with thousands of thoughts drifting through my mind. One after the other, each one becoming clearer than the last, until it seems as though I live solely in my mind, or in my state of mind for ( Read more... )

Well I am feeling awesome now, so FUCK YOU SICKNESS!!! HAHAHA There is no beating my immune system. So that lasted, what...a few hours? HAHA I win!!! Anywho, it is as windy as hell outside. Wierd weather eh? Saturday it was pouring down rain. My condo complex practically flooded. Now we have the wind. FUN. Well I am ff, happy saint ( Read more... )

I feel like shit, I look like shit, and I sound like shit. For those of you who know me, I am usually always on-line, but today I AM DIEING so I am pretty much spending the day curled in a little tiny ball in my bed watching daytime info-mercials. That's right world Travis is SICK!!! Won't someone please take careof me???

I am exploring the inside. I find it desolate. I do implore these confines now as they penetrate, "recreate me." I'm hovering throughout time. I crumble in these days. I crumble, I cannot find reflection in these days. If you listen, listen close, beat-by-beat, you can hear when the heart stops. I saved the pieces when it broke and ground ( Read more... )

With burning eyes I see my future ( Read more... )