Ms. B saw my arms, she tried to make me talk to her but i refued, she told my guidence counselor to watch over me, we had a couple meetings, then she told my mom. I don't want to get help, cutting is my escape, blades are part of my nessecities now, I'd trade in love for the ability to cut. But I don't think i believe in love at all anymore..or ( Read more... )

i can't belive he brought alcohal here again, she got drunk again, but finally today she stopped, and she is actually letting him stay, i almost cut last night, but i was too busy taking care of my mom.

i can't belive he brought alcohal here again, she got drunk again, but finally today she stopped, and she is actually letting him stay, i almost cut last night, but i was too busy taking care of my mom.

so after i met with Ms. R and my mother about my "negative compulsive behavior", i have to get some outside counseling. Everything was great for about a week, i hadn't got counseling yet but i was going to. Today mom didnt go to work, and keith got her drunk instead.I can't believe he brought alcohal to MY HOUSE!! but after all this, i cut. but i ( Read more... )

Ms. B saw my arms, she was all like "Claire what gapened to your arms?" I said "nothing" she said" let me see." I said no, later sge told my guidence counselor to watch over me and now she is going to tell my mother on monday, My mom doesn't deserve this. I don't want her to have another problem child. Ms Rubianes is going to make me go to outside ( Read more... )

Every day lasts forever..I don't know how long I can keep up the lies..I feel my mask of security slipping away and more and more people seeing me..without a mask..barren..naked and vulnberable. I actually pulled out the fake courage to go to Jessica's pool party yesterday..people asked...I lied..people asked..I lied...finally i wandered out to the ( Read more... )

I haven't written in so long perhaps becuase I have nothing to say. Jessica is having her party tommarow, none of my people are going..at least I think their staying home, but myabe some of the pops could ok I guess...:( I still want to go. Brenton got popped trying to score acid...he is in a "Men's Centre" in Fort Myers, this sucks, one down..3 ( Read more... )

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Neil was just a pawn in my master plan to not like Jared. It didn't work, i almost can't srand Neil. life sux, i like Jared so much, but either he is oblivious or doesn't like me so :(
love to no one
claire

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