It is so impossible to imagine you’re gone. I didn’t know you very well, or for very long, but I will remember you for as long as I live. Your death, as tragic and heartbreaking as it is, has reminded me that I need to snap out of my depression and start living again. To do otherwise is unfair to your memory. You were trying to turn your life ( Read more... )

Everything is so fucked up right now. It's ridiculous to think how these things change, how everything can snowball out of control before you can even realize how insanely wrong it is ( Read more... )

I never thought i'd say this, but I think it has finally happened. I think I finally hate him. Its so strange to think that in as short a time as 11 months, you can go from strangers to friends to lovers to falling in and then out of love and finally reaching the point of hating someone. Such a wild roller coaster these few months have been! Now ( Read more... )

I'm going to write today. Hopefully it makes this need to escape fade.

things are going to be very, very different now.

I just want you to know how much I love you...

I don't know what to do anymore ( Read more... )

No wonder everyone says I'm a drama queen and thinks I need counselling! Ok, so the counselling thing is more of a "you say you hate yourself and are always sad, so go talk to someone and try to get better instead of being all depressed" suggestion, rather than a "you're crazy, get help" intervention sorta thing ( Read more... )

I am having the worst day ever. This was the sort of shift that makes you wanna quit your job on the spot and fuck the consequences, take all your cash and buy a greyhound ticket for a place you've never been because fuck, the unknown has to be better. I'm having a hate myself and hate you more day. A curl up in a ball and cry yourself to sleep day ( Read more... )

The cooler is a hot, hot mess as per usual. I hate walking back there and discovering no ones even attempted to do anything in there. Its beyond frustrating to see shit like this happen because I have a day off and on that day off, we get a delivery and bam, everything in there goes to hell. Working overnights here has made me cranky and hateful, ( Read more... )

I deleted him from my life today. No picture, no number saved, no more saved texts full of bullshit he never meant and I bought into so fucking easily. He doesn't work with me anymore so its not like it'll suddenly be awkward now that its done. Besides, it was his call for it to be done... I'm glad though. I realize now he was much smoother than I ( Read more... )