My grandmother died yesterday. My father called my crying. My mom cried. We're all just a mess today.

Should I stand here frozen in time
Or should I let my tears melt my strength
To show how deep my mourning is
As even love does not know its own depth
Until the moment of separation
And at this moment
This depth is the hardest to confess
As I stand over ( Read more... )

I want to be in love again. The kind of love that makes you just feel like you're going to explode in 2 when they are gone, and when they're around, your heart just sings and your cries out to touch theirs. I want this again. After feeling this way and having my soul ripped to shreds, I'm left here trying to pick up the pieces and make something of ( Read more... )

As stated in my title, life is hard. I work so much, I get so little back. My passion for children is shot down by my bosses passion for more money. School is assigning way too much work. Work is becoming more... work-like. I'm just tired. My social life has been flushed down the toilet, along with all my motivation and self esteem. I hate money, ( Read more... )

I got hired at the library, and just finished my first week. The job is very easy and I feel overpaid for what I do, but I'm not complaining. Completely stress-free and simple... Finally, something simple in my life. lol Maybe it will just balance everything else out.

Anyways, long story short, I am happy.

Have you noticed that all people care about lately is all the dumb shit they have? Iphones, new cars, ipods, laptops, pimped out computers, big screen tvs.... What will these possessions do for you? Entertain you? People have lost sight of the things that truly matter in this world. Intergrity, faith, loyalty, principle and discipline. None of your ( Read more... )

I lost my keys. (Car keys, house keys, store key for my job *gulp ( Read more... )

I got a new phone... I haven't changed my number yet, I have to wait until the 19th to do so. (I'm changing my number so Gary can't contact me) I feel kind of like a psycho chick.. The ones that I make fun of, but I least I only did SYMBOLIC psycho shit. HAHAHA The symbolism is psycho but it's nothing like stalking a guy or anything creepy like ( Read more... )

I'm always thinking that there is something wrong with me. I am just so fucking flawed and worthless... But I've come to an epiphany! Men are just dumb. THEY are the problem, not me. What is so wrong with me? I am HARDWORKING, SMART, FUNNY... I'm even kind of cute. I work out 6 times a week, for my HEALTH and not so much vanity (ok maybe a little ( Read more... )

I worry waaayyyy more than I need to. Seriously, I need to just take a deep fucking breath. I think work and school is getting to me. Gotta stay focused on my goals.

FOCUS!

So Dan and I used to talk like everyday for a long time, a long time ago... and now we're friends again and it's awesome. =P

BoredGizzle (2:33:18 PM): good day
ACertainFutility (2:38:10 PM): Greetings.
BoredGizzle (2:38:26 PM): *lick*
ACertainFutility (2:38:32 PM): !!!
ACertainFutility (2:38:36 PM): [licks back]
BoredGizzle (2:38:44 PM): *giggles*
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