am i outdated for still using livejournal?  am i holding on to something of the past?  or is a tool that grounds/ centers me?  what other alternative do i have to journaling?  i like the privacy and security of livejournal, but sometimes i feel like i should move on.  i remember people would just start a new journal.  maybe i should do that?  i ( Read more... )

my parents don't have hot water because their water heater needs to be replaced, and my dad is relying on his church friends to fix it, instead of paying full price and getting someone legit to fix the problem.  i offer to help pay for these expenses but he refuses, because he wants to be cheap.  i don't think they understand the urgency of having ( Read more... )

i'm so sleepy.  its starting to get warm (er) in socal.  its about 89 degrees today.  whenever i walk in the heat and into an conditioned building, it gets me really sleepy.

i have been wanting to spring up my balcony, so i need to make time to go to the hardware store and buy flowers and potting soil.

i am thinking about going camping for ( Read more... )

i don't know why i was so emotional, very worrisome.  i feel like it is the lack of support i get from my partner.  but i shouldn't rely on anyone else for my happiness.  i did good, though.  i realized the negative thoughts i was having, and i instead flipped it and tried to think positive thoughts.  many of these thoughts, i've notices, manifest ( Read more... )

it is strange whenever i am on the phone with a call center that has been outsourced to a spanish speaking country.  i feel compelled to speak to them in spanish, more so right after i have to verify my identity because i have a mexican name and live on a street and city with spanish names, and i pronounce them as such.  but i don't.  because i ( Read more... )

last night some crack head broke into my car and stole my radio, subwoofer, and everything in the glove box.  they used a screwdriver to break the locks.  it must have been a crackhead because who the hell steals car stereos nowadays?  i don't know if it was a homeless crackhead, but it's hard to imagine anyone else do some dumb shit like that.  i ( Read more... )

i've been questioning the prejudice i have.  i know not all white people are they same, but... freaking white people.

we went out saturday night, and we made a few friends.  but it was only white people who made us feel foreign, even though we were born and raised here and they were the tourists/ transplants.  it was white people who had the ( Read more... )

some man came up to me as i was taking a break and soaking up some rays on a bench (today was a beautiful 75 degree los angeles day) and awkwardly asked me if i do any bible studying.  i told him i do not, and he awkwardly invited me to a bible study, which he was just coming from, that meets here on campus.  i politely declined, and it seemed he ( Read more... )

it's interesting how my dog is friendly with other dogs, but not so friendly with strangers.  he's not aggressive toward people.  in public, he won't bark at them or pay much attention to them really.  he is just very weary when people approach us in the street or try to talk or pet him in a store.  he'll either give them a warning bark or butt ( Read more... )

it is what it is.