i just learned about the stanford prison experiment a month ago in my summer psychology class.   the experiment was to analyze how people react to authority and was stopped six days into it when it was suppose to last for two weeks because the student participants really fell into their roles of prison guards and prisoners and started becoming ( Read more... )

yesterday was a glorious day. bright, sunny, and warm.  i didn't wake up and get out of bed until 2pm.  i needed the rest after a long weekend of work.  i did not make enough money to pay all my bills, but at least i made rent.  i can tap into my rainy-day funds for everything else.  it was such a nice day yesterday that i wanted to be outside for ( Read more... )

i felt it coming, but tried to keep it at bay thinking i can manage my feelings/thoughts/emotions without my therapist.  but i feel sad.  i don't know what triggered it.  was it that little scene that happened yesterday at the beach?  with dude scolding me for "acting up."  i don't know what i was doing, but apparently it annoyed him enough to ( Read more... )

dude had a bad shift last night at work.  the operations manager/vice president's wife came in for dinner with two redneck (his words) friends, and they pulled a prank on dude, which he did not appreciate at all.  even though their food was covered by the establishment, they still wanted to pay something so that they can leave him a tip, and handed ( Read more... )

i'm house and dogsitting for one of my brothers. i'm here with my dog and watching over his dog who is real old, like around 15-years-old.  i hadn't seen her in a while and she dropped a lot of weight so that she can use her back legs, something about a common nerve disorder with her breed, miniature pinscher.   anyways, when you first see her, one ( Read more... )

it makes me feel some type of way every year.

i bought myself flowers this morning, because i am learning to love myself.

and i bought a bunch for my mom and another bunch for my dad, to express my gratitude and congratulate them on making this beautiful, amazing, and awesome creation.

then my mind wonders on the day i will no longer be able ( Read more... )

i had a hard time getting up.   my mental state was negative, my physical state followed.  bitterness, anxiety, doubt, depressed.  i was so tired/ depressed that i didn't want to show up for my appointment.  i'm glad that i did.  he made me realize this was exhaustion; i haven't had a break since november.  he reminded me that my self-care is ( Read more... )

i took my second o.chem exam today and i am glad that is over for now.  my final exam is four days after my birthday, which mean i will probably be preoccupied with studying to celebrate.  it's time for a vacation.  i imagined myself on a warm beach somewhere not in la, echado, con un mojito o una pina colada en mano, tirando hueva.  i'm not sure ( Read more... )

when i was in middle school, sixth or seventh grade, i applied to a science program at uc santa cruz.  i needed recommendation letters from my math and science teachers.  and i did not get accepted because my math teacher, ms. rausch, wrote a bad letter of recommendation.  my rejection had to do with my disruptive, hyperactive childhood self.  the ( Read more... )

before i woke up this morning, i was dreaming that i was at my parents house, and there were pet snakes everywhere.  then one snake ate another, and we realized some were rattlesnakes.  one of the pet snakes was hiding in my sock, and i can feel it's warm round cylinder body at the bottom of my foot.  the rattle snakes started attacking everything ( Read more... )