new yrs eve was fun. sher and i went and partied our buns off. met cute boys. kissed cute boys. drank drink. free and not free. had tons of fun. im back on my nutrisystem. i feel more energetic and happy then i have been in a long time. im in this biggest loser thingy a bunch of us are doing. we all put in money and in march whoever is closest to ( Read more... )

 i ordered ns today. im back. whoo hoo. im excited. skinny me here i come. ima be a hot sexy auntie to my baby gurl. haha. man. its friday. im happy. i have 4 days off of wk. ima chill. go see my baby. go to walmart 2nite with the marques dude. go to et with the crazy peeps. and not have a worry in the world. f**k jimmy BS. f**k $$ bs. ima go have ( Read more... )

i  am sooooo in luv with my neice. she is the most adorable baby i have ever laid eyes on. ive never loved a child like this ever. my sis is already the best mommy ever. shes so protective of mylee. last nite when mylee was asleep in my arms my sis was sleepin and every noise mylee made my sis heard and woke up to make sure her daughter was ok. nik ( Read more... )

 mylee quinn lott is here!!! steaf had a csection and mylee was born at 132pm. she weighed 8pds and 6 oz. 20 inches long. shes beautiful. we had tons of pics. there was a lot of us takin them. we were like the dam paparzzi haha. im so in luv with her. steaf is doin good. she was in lots of pain yesterday but shes better. nik is a proud papa. he ( Read more... )

its done.  i left him a 5 min vm. now he probably wont ever talk to me again. im..i dont kno the word..numb maybe. idk. i wanna go home. who knew this would be so hard? maybe it will open his eyes. maybe not. if he doesnt then i kno i did the right thing. if it does then great for me. i dont see nething positive coming from this tho. *sigh* life is ( Read more... )

 im about to tell jimmy that its over. whatever we have going on is over. im dying. my whole insides are breaking apart. but i need to do it for me. he needs to realize i cant live like this nemore. im scared. this is a HUGE step for me. but im going to do it. i wanna be happy. i NEED to be happy. he makes me happy. just not being in NY. not ( Read more... )

i got my nose pierced!!! yay. i luv it. feels weird. i feel like theres a huge ass booger in there and i wanna pick my nose. lmao. had a fun weekend. skateland for shers daughters bday. nose piercing. joey almost killin me. ass hole. talkin to jimmy. all i need is my sis to pop. lol  and i have to say i luv hanging with doug and lacinda. i have ( Read more... )

 just got off the fone with jimmy. he told me he mite MIGHT be coming home in about a month 2 stay for about a month. its a MIGHT but dam it im all excited now. why cant he tell me when he knows for sure. im like sitting on top of the world now. he wants to go finish gettin his tats. he said he wants to buy a car and he will leave it @ my house. ya ( Read more... )

 
My sis needs to pop. She is 9 months and one wk today. She had a doctor appt this morning at 830 and she hasn’t called me yet. I really hope she has mylee soon. Shes sick of being prego. Last nite her step son was telling me that he is gonna take care of his baby sister when she comes. So cute. Hes 9 yrs old. My brother in law is gonna be so over ( Read more... )

 
Ok so im going to be okay. My good friend rico wrote me the longest message and explained it all to me. I know now is not a good time for j and i. I know he loves me a ton and if things were different then we would be 2gether. I don’t know what the future holds for us but I know that we both love each other a lot and we will get thru this. I had a ( Read more... )