so... colleges are crazy. i was accepted to six of my ten: BC, Adelphi, Cabrini, W&J, Quinnipiac, and Sacred Heart. i'm still waiting on Binghamton, Harvard, Cornell, and Dartmouth, although I do not have high hopes for the last three. anyway, adelphi offered me a large scholarship called their presidential scholarship... which is practically a ( Read more... )

derrick and i are amazing... and i'm really happy... i know he cares about me a lot and he knows i care about him and it will work out... although i am talking to this kid and i have been for a while and he's madd chill... like i don't know him that well but we click... but derrick... idk... i have no idea what to do anymore because i <3 derrick ( Read more... )

hahahah okay so i'm sitting here at work with absolutely nothing to do. okay so maybe that is a total lie... i do have work to do but i am wayyyyy too lazy to actually get up out of this comfortable chair for two seconods to go bring that damn cart down :: yes i'm at the library working :) :: anyway, so derrick and i were supposed to chill last ( Read more... )

i take that back. we are not official. we talked it over.. and he decided that we are just "dating" the stage BEFORE being official. and that's fine. if that's what he's comfortable with then so be it. but guaranteed, if in may he's still not ready for committment then i'm going to bounce. as much as i <3 him and always will, i'm willing to ( Read more... )

so.. my decision to stay single for senior year has already been revoked with the new year. he asked me out... he def wants me to be his girl.. the only thing is i feel guilty because i know .. i know that before he didn't want to be official and suddenly he does? i dont want him to just be official because i want it. i want him to be ready for ( Read more... )

life = perfect... i'm soooooo happy it's unbelievable... hahaha two dreams have come true in the past month and i just... i don't know. life seems to be going on the right track for once :) ... i <3 you like crazy woah. lol. best friends = amazing = endless possibilities... hahaha and that's "all i'm at liberty to say at the moment" and umm... i' ( Read more... )

happy holidays to all... this year has been amazing and full of surprises... so.. umm... a certain someone who is very close to my heart... idk how to say this... there's something different in the way he holds me, looks at me, kisses me... idk it's weird... there's something else there and i'm afraid ... lol hahaha... i dont want to look too much ( Read more... )

winter concert was two nights ago... sucked ass for the most part lol. i <3 band. and well... playing with orchestra wasnt bad... although the conducting was a tad bit hard to follow. playing with the choir was horrific. by that time, everyone in band was horribly tired. oh yeah, i fucked up. and fuck you to the choir people who want to blame ( Read more... )

so... maybe things aren't that bad lol ( Read more... )

1. suck my dick. you want to be a fucking bitch over everything and suddenly decide to go fucking OD on everything ONE week before the event then you can go and suck my balls ( Read more... )