Life is coming together...Jeremy and I aren't dating, but we are friends....for a week there he wasn't talking to me because of his then girlfriend. Now we are talking and everythign is fine because we are friends and nothing more...its a great feeling to have a friend as amazing as he is. he is a great person despite what everyone thinks. I think ( Read more... )

Dead
alone
dumped
seen
unseen
beauty

what is this life worth when you can not have the one you love?

wow...it has deffinitly been a while. I have had quite a hecktic time....Jeremy and I broke up...but we are back together now. School sucks, work sucks and life sucks....yeah well thats about it......

In my eyes, my beauty has died. I am nothing but a foul, disgusting creature. My thought roam in my head, and though everything is terrific in my life, I expect the worst. I am always waiting for the next disaster, the next death, and the next disappointment. Why do I expect the worst I ask myself daily? maybe because the worst has happened to me. ( Read more... )

[-41] - Who was the last person you yelled at?: myself

[-40] - Who was the last person you kissed?: Jeremy

[-39] - What was the last memorable book you read?: In cold blood

[-38] - When did you last dance?: homecoming

[-37] - Whats the last thing you want to hear from your parents?: "you are a failure"
[-36] - When did you last go for a walk in the park ( Read more... )

Don't you see me?

look at me, watch me!

Don't you get it?

Can't you see?

It's not nothing

Its happiness, pain,  and pleasure.

Do you see it now?

Do you see me now?

Look at me not my scars,

Look at him not his past

We are not nothing

We are everything.

Today I walked

Today I loved

Today I cryed

Today I see

Today You failed

Today your not a ( Read more... )

Hatred fills me. Hatred for my classmates, and those beautiful girls. Why have I no approval? I am not a size 0 I am not 100lbs. Is that a crime? Does that make me unfit? I like having curves (though mine need trimming). Leave me alone, Let me be. I am not fat. PLEASE stop. I am not the media image, that does not mean I do not posses beauty! Don't ( Read more... )

I am screaming in a crowded room.....just screaming, and no body flinches. I can scream into their ear, yet they hear nothing. "Stop it! please let go" I scream. I am trapped in my lavender room, Alone, but with no privacy. My love visits, I feel like I am in prison. I can't kiss him without some one seeing. I am band from loving, seeing, and ( Read more... )

{I saw them coming, and then I heard them start clapping. "HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY" they sang in a tacky little tune. I turned beat red, and for less then one moment I glanced over at my love, and our eyes met. For that moment the noise, and the clapping disapered, and all I saw was his smiling face. He looked so happy, As was I. Just to see his ( Read more... )

*Sniffle sniffle tear tear* "I am like so pissed off I had to like work today"( said in a mocking valley girl tone)

Oh god, I am so sorry. Work must be rough, I mean REALLy rough if you have time to bitch about it in Livejournal(for 7 fucking paragraphs). Go ahead comment and bitch me out. I had 2 jobs up until a week ago...I dare you to comment. ( Read more... )