Silly little girls; thinking I still have a soul. I'd feel sorry for them if I could.

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Well, it had been three days and she still hadn’t called. I was beginning to think maybe she just wouldn’t and although I tried to tell myself I was ok with that, my actions would prove otherwise. It was my first few days off school at the beginning of Christmas break and I had decided to stay in San Francisco to spend some time with Ashley ( Read more... )

I laid there on the floor with my face pressed against the rough carpet and stared at the three green lights from the vcr across the room. My arms lay beside me with my palms facing up towards the ceiling. 3 lights. The carpet was thin and was undoubtedly thrown over a slab of concrete. It was cold and abrasive on my face; it felt good. My ( Read more... )

“Pardon me, I have this bucket and it is so very heavy. Would it be too much trouble for me to ask if perhaps you would help me carry it ( Read more... )

“What time is it ( Read more... )

She let her head fall onto my shoulder, reached over and grabbed the cigarette from out of my lips. She was sweating, beautiful. I looked at her for a long second. She didn’t notice. Her eyes crossed slightly as she tried to look at the flaming cherry at the end of the cigarette ( Read more... )

I’d been sitting in the room for two days. Nothing had changed. The world outside was just as intrusive and belligerent as it was when I had closed the doors originally. The room was hot and stank of stale cigarettes and close quarter shits. Occasionally I would sneak out, pulling the collar up around my face, and my hat down around my ears. I ( Read more... )

She looked at me and I swear to God my heart jumped through my mouth. People just don’t realize how possible it is to give yourself away in a look, or how good it feels. I spent the rest of the time rationalizing, thinking, categorizing. By the time I was done with myself, I had myself convinced that it came down to nothing more then the ( Read more... )

I just realized that I can smoke cigarettes in the bathroom so that I wont have to go outside anymore. I can even read while sitting on the toilet, smoking and doing other unnamable if the urge posseses me. I just hope I have enough cigarettes to last me till monday.