everyone on livejournal sucks. except for the 4 cool people who commented on my last livejournal entry. that was a great entry and i got 4 comments, i make stupid entrys and get like 20. ?????????????????????? something is messed up. anyways were home finally. the van is fixed.. i dont really feel like typing more now cuz i dont think anyone really ( Read more... )

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i wish that tomorrow when we left, we were never coming back. im so screwed up its not funny. i want to leave and never come back, and no one would really notice me being gone. maybe i could start over somewhere else, and not suck at life as much..

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i want to get in a showball fight so bad. i want to get nailed in the face by a big ball of snow that hopefully has a big chunck of ice in it. then i want to get mad and hit him or her over the head with a snow shovel, then burry their body in the snow and when the sun comes the snow will melt and their loved ones will find their friends lifeless ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving was good. I got to spend it with my awesome family. I finally got to see SAW with my cuzin. We loved the movie, hated the audience in the theater. They laughed non-stop at the scary parts to try to make themselves not scared..and then screamed at the characters on the screen cuz I guess they thought they could hear them and would take ( Read more... )

i think im getting sick..or maybe its just depression.. or maybe both..but putting on a happy face is getting harder and harder to do. it takes to much out of me, and i hate being fake to everyone. why does this have to be so painful? why cant i just have no feelings at all

if i could just rip my heart out

I'm home. The trip was overall good. Long days, barely any sleep, hearing the word "effer" every 2 seconds, amazing worship services, not so amazing sharing times, showering at an old crappy Y-MCA, listening to a bunch of a good music with stephen on his ipod, drinking mass hot chocalate, singing happy birthday to sam 4 times at a golden corral and ( Read more... )

Im having a birthday party at my house tonight. If u read this u proabably already know about it but if not..now u do. it starts around 8, if u can come call up my cell at 675-9024 and i'll give u some directions. there will be free food, a bonfire, a band, and a lot of drugs like usual. be there

Please take your gun and put it to my head. Pull the trigger so I can think clearly. Dont let my death bring you to much joy.