I don't know what's worse about today, how irritated I am, or how little everything is actually bothering me. I'm irritated and I don't know why, and I'm most likely pissing off everyone around me. Yet for some reason all the things that should, and usually would, upset me just don't. I think I'm annoyed at how little I care about everything right ( Read more... )

I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't think that this has ever really happened to me before. So this is how it feels? Hm, I guess that's it then. End of an era? Time to keep moving. I've already started, I guess I can't let anything slow me down. I've actually started making progress in my life. Still...feels so unsatisfactory. I can't ( Read more... )

Last month I extended my text plan online so that come July I would have enough to last me the month. Apparently if you make changes to your account online it is impossible to future date it. That is where the scam lies. By changing my text plan on the 29th, it canceled my 250 message plan and lowered it to something like 150 messages...even though ( Read more... )

Maybe I should stop pushing people away, and actually cherish my friendships a little more. Or maybe I should speak up and tell them to fuck off a little sooner...hmm, dilemma. Oh, high school, did you teach me nothing?

Nothing too drastic happened this year, but I like to think it's the year that everything started falling into place. I have this strange feeling that '010 is going to be a year of moving on. Everyone I know is spending this New Years Eve in a different place. Whatever it brings, I'd really appreciate something good.

It just keeps going ( Read more... )

These are the nights that should have been eliminated when Kenny and I moved in together. I don't want to be alone, but I really don't want to be around people. Today was kinda rough, but that was to be expected. I haven't seen all my family in one place since...well I really can't remember when. I can't even picture it. It's not really fun anymore ( Read more... )

Last night was great. I can't say it was at all what I expected. I guess nothing good ever is. I thought about graduation day for a second. That horrible regret, and the feeling I got as I watched them walk away. I guess I was wrong. Those feelings are finally resolved. I wonder if they'll ever know...

Also, Happy Birthday Maranda!

A bird's gotta fly, here there's not enough room.
I'm not saying I've got wings, but somehow I'm gonna soar.

Today I handed over my resume. Kenny's aunt expects an interview within the week. She wants me in training in less than 3 weeks. What happened to December? I really need some new clothes. I did not expect this. I hope they hire me. You have no idea how badly I want to tell relay to go shove it.