so i wasn't gonna say what i had to say on the phone...but the person just kept asking...so i had to explain. it was taken seriously though. and, of course, they tried to make me feel guilty as if it were all my fault...like i'm some big antagonist. i swear. i feel regret, not for doing it...but for so much that has gone on. like, i'm glad, i've ( Read more... )

yea, so i'm free of a humongous (sp?) burden and terrorizing and long and exhausting situation in my life...welp, almost...but i'm at least out of what i call the "unknown world filled with confusion". which is so great! like, i know how i feel and i know what i want and what i don't want. and like, i'm so ready to just cut it all off and say ( Read more... )

tonight was good. better than good actually. perhaps things won't be so bad. i've decided to take each day as it comes. and i am hoping with all my heart that more of the days will be filled with laughter, smiles, and exquisite joy instead of tears, frowns, and extreme sadness. that is the best i can do. and that, is that.

<3 KeL*

...And if I tell you
Lover alone without love
What will happen?...

...Yes, if I tell you
Lover alone without love
Will you miss him?...

who knows...

yea, so i'm quite ticked off. i won't get into why because i don't feel like it. i'm just too ticked to even start. gosh, i'm tired of this b.s. ...plain sick and tired of it!... not really looking forward to tomorrow, 'cause from the looks of it, i'll only be even more pissed off as the next two weeks go by. i refuse to shed a tear though, i'd ( Read more... )

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1. health sucks. doctors suck. stress sucks. plain and simple. because, get this, my fricken doctor told me today that "we have gotten you where we could only hope to get you when you started having problems in january. the digestive disorder that you have cannot be cured, it can only be helped. your being an overacheiver is great, but the fact ( Read more... )

ughsh, i'm so b-o-r-e-d with life. welp, life today, as it is with my dang stomach pains that is. lol. (see i'm laughing, maybe i'm getting better? yes? i hope so). these tv shows and movies, i think they're making me worse. i just lay, holding a big ole pillow against my stomach and just look at the screen. how boring is that? i mean, no wonder i ( Read more... )

i just wanna be healthy and get to do whatever i want whenever i want! i'm tired of taking so many pills that help sometimes, but not all the time. i realize what i have isn't even all the way figured out by doctors right now, but i just can't take these outbursts anymore. when they happen all i can do is lay on the floor holding my stomach and ( Read more... )