i don't know what to say anymore. i don't know what i'm allowed to say. i don't know what i'm allowed to feel. i never used to be like this, but scars from the past have caused me to be scared. i'm scared to feel, but it's too late. i already do. i've tried so hard, but i can't not. it's just, is it even realistic? i mean, people are just going to ( Read more... )

yea, so i don't really wanna go bowlin'...but i am, 'cause i'm bored. blah.
<3 KeL*

*stolen from thatssohot ( Read more... )

boy am i oh-so-glad that i got a fix of optimism this morning! it allowed me to have a content day...of course, the mall will do that for me too, so, perhaps, it was a mixture of both. lol. but anyways, i think i've been to every Victoria Secret within an hour away in the past week: Northwoods, Mt. Pleasant, Citadel, downtown Charleston, and back ( Read more... )

*so, yea, last night turned into a mess. when i got home from seeing "the darkness" (by the way, bad ending, don't go see it) i thought everything was okay and going well. then, some news was brought my way...let's just say, too much overload of emotions and worrying. so, i couldn't go to bed until like 4:30 am./ 5:00 am...it was just so hard to ( Read more... )

...cold, not just on the outside, but on the inside too...i need someone to be here...so that i can reassure the someone that it'll all be okay no matter what...and yes, i'm being selfish too...because deep down, i also want the person to be holding me so tight right now and wiping my tears away...maybe then the cold would go away ( Read more... )

*...so screw everything that's been going on the past couple of months. it doesn't really matter anyways...just the same old stuff. christmas? christmas was okay... different because i'm older and somehow the magic of it has just about slipped away. this makes me sad. i mean, i love the magic of things. i love being naive. i mean, sure, i hate not ( Read more... )

*Why is it that some people ditch their friends for their boyfriends or girlfriends? i mean, it'd be one thing if like someone said, "oh i'm sorry, i can't make plans like that because i already made plans with my boyfriend or girlfriend" ...but it's a completely different thing when someone just up and decides to ditch their friend DURING the ( Read more... )

...once again, i'm having difficulty getting to sleep...i need assurance to go to sleep. i need a peace of mind to keep me from being restless. i need to know that everything is okay. better yet, that everything is great. i need to know that everything is going to be alright, too. so is it? is everything great between us and is everything going to ( Read more... )

so...yea...i can't sleep. not one bit. *sad face*

..."a thousand other boys could never reach me, but you have been the one"...

<3KeL*