I'm  very disappointed with my inability to control my emotions, especially when I am extremely disappointed by something, or upset by something or someone.  Sometimes I act like a five-year-old and I really don't like that.  I wish I were better able to mask these emotions for the sake of making other people happy.

maybe more about this later.  

I need to learn to be more positive in life ( Read more... )

I'm getting really frustrated.  I've been home a month and nothing has come up yet.  A few interviews, nothing overly exciting though.  Damn health department still can't get their heads out of their asses and call me for an interview (since I scored HIGHEST on their stupid exam!)

I know I need to find a temporary job doing, well, anything.  But I'm ( Read more... )

Well, I'm finally home ( Read more... )

1) What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
A very yummy brownie with whipped cream

2) Have you ever kissed anyone named Matt?
Yes, in high school.  my boyfriend in 9th grade was named Matt

2a) Have you ever kissed anyone named Matilda?
no
3) What does your last text message say?
"keep the 12th open, we have tix 2 an art show" - from Jonny

4) What was ( Read more... )

I took my final on Tuesday, finished grading lab reports last night and entered the grades this morning.  I spent my last evening in my coffee shop sanctuary and this will probably be my last day in the grad student office ( Read more... )

How am I expected to decide what to do with my life when I have NO CLUE what I really want to do with my life??  Why are we expected to be able to figure everything out right away ( Read more... )

My posts have been so depressing lately.  There's reason for that, but its also getting old.  Something needs to change.

*sigh* 2 months left

I should not be required to sacrifice my own happiness and my sanity for the sake of a career path which I am not even passionate about to begin with.  If my passions lie elsewhere, why not find a job where I can pursue them as well?  What is wrong with me not wanting to make myself miserable over the next two years just because "everybody else ( Read more... )

Today is another day of struggle.  If I were at home, I'd be at the Sonic in Pgh Mills for an event with my Bobcam friends.  I can watch it on the cam but I can't be there.  And this makes me extremely sad, so I had to turn it off.  I miss everyone at home so freaking much.  I can't seem to turn my thoughts away from this and onto the studying I ( Read more... )