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More evidence that 2012 is the suck? I end up having a fucking heart attack. Although I will say, as an experience, it wasn't that terrible. It wasn't really scary, I never panicked or felt like I was going to die or anything... I did get extremely anxious while in the ER about five people just rushed in and started stripping my pants off and ( Read more... )

I need an escape from reality. I'm sick of home life. I'm sick of working. I'm sick of seeing no one and watching so much TV that I have to actively find new shows and episodes I had missed just to fill in empty hours. I'm sick of burning out at work to the point where I'm exhausted every night, even on my days off ( Read more... )

These last two weeks have not been the greatest for me, but I think I crawled out finally. I don't have the mental energy to go through every little thing about what happened and how it made me feel and blah blah blah, but it sucked, let me tell you ( Read more... )

Things have been good for awhile. Its nice. I've been getting my shit done at home and at work, things are looking prettiful, I feel super cute almost all the time and I'm not drowning from having negative monies. Its a feeling I wish I had all the time. I think that even Katy has come out of her depression, at least mostly, which does a lot to ( Read more... )

I stayed up, and was out in the world doing things past midnight again. My whole body sings whenever I do that now, because it is so special and rare and makes me feel irresponsible and carefree. :3 happysigh ( Read more... )

I've been doing the whole "feeling too many things at once" thing today pretty much since the moment I was able to be alone ( Read more... )

I spent way too much money last night having an awesome time. It was wonderful to not care about grown up shit for a few hours. I laughed until it hurt, I drank, I talked with strangers, I wore my cute white raincoat and makeup, I came home late... Good times, man. Good times ( Read more... )

to follow up from my previous entry, I think I made some headway. :3 We spent pretty much the entire weekend just touching and canoodling without actually having sex, and it was niiiiice. And then... we slept. At least for awhile. I was apparently very horned up from the 48 hours of touching and making out that I started masturbating in my ( Read more... )

So I'm laying in bed last night, waiting for the cold meds to kick in so that I can fall asleep, and thinking about random shit. It occurred to me, as it sometimes does, that my sex life is not the greatest ever and that sucks. This time, though, I did a little digging into my brain as to why that might be. I've thought about my previous sexual ( Read more... )