i had the wierdest dream ever last night. but the scarriest part was when this man in all black and a white clown face was holding a gun to my head, and then he slowly counted to ten. i was waiting and waiting, knowing that i was going to die and that i didn't have any choice, and then he pulled the trigger and there was no bullet. he laughs and ( Read more... )

i am an american breakfast of you
i am an advertisement for summer
my bones are made out of driftwood, and my heart is a music box,
a clock out of orbit, a
lonely pluto.
and sometime soon, it will be ok to be loved
it will be ok 
to be you
and me
and just 
us or them or they. nothing more. 
and hapiness is not
someeing to be gained after a promising job, or 
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i've  been thinking about my entire life here. i've never left. and this summer, im leaving as much as i can. leaving as far as i can manage. and then i'll come back... stay for a couple of days, and then i'll leave again. and the sadness of leaving maya and ananda is all consuming. thomas. tana. my mom. i've taken advantage of how much i love my ( Read more... )

FUCK  FUCK FUCK FUCK ( Read more... )

the internet  is not the place for me. and neither is the real world.

 fuck im so antsy ( Read more... )

we are trying to be different in some way. but i have the same mental and emotional problems as you do and so does he, and so does she.and everyone is whirling around in a pit and we're all there. so crawl out. 
i have been feeling so lonely... and it is silly, because there are always people around me. and i already miss my family, but they are ( Read more... )

 like my skin, i peal you off, every night
before i go to sleep

baby im affraid of a lot of things but
i aint scared of loving you
and baby i know you're affraid of a lot of things
but don't be scared of love... 'cause 
people will say all kinds of things
but that don't meant a damn to me
'cause all i see is whats in front of me
and thats you

well i've been ( Read more... )

did you  guys know its very common for people to dream about their teeth falling out? last night i had a dream that my touth crumbled up into a bunch of peices and then my mouth was bleading for a really long time and i was trying to get to a bathroom. but that is normal because it happens all the time. and it means some bullshit about me worrying ( Read more... )

you  keep your stability, i'll keep my heart

hey guys.... things are pretty rough i guess.... if anyone feels like giving me love i really freaking need it