Was going to fast today. Of course mom bought an expensive fattening dinner. I had a big Mexican burrito, 1 chip, and a large Coke. Purged about half of it, maybe a bit less. I had to stop, because my heart started hurting really bad ( Read more... )

Fuck, I'm tired. I can't wait until I graduate and then I don't ever want to wake up at 6am again, lol ( Read more... )

I want my will power back. The will power I had in 7th grade. Before I ever binged. Back when I lost 35 lbs in 1 month. When I had control. When I didn't purge. When I didn't NEED to purge, because I didn't binge. When I ate nothing unless I had too. And didn't get upset when I was forced to eat. I just started over immediately after ( Read more... )

TRIGGER WARNING BINGE DEETS!FUCK THIS SHIT. IT'S TIME TO GET FUCKING SERIOUS ( Read more... )

Okay, so my Internet Explorer won't work now. I'm using Chrome which I hate, but whatever. 247.4 lbs... I know it's bad, but you don't know how fucking awful school was. Okay so on the 19th we went to San Fran and I couldn't get out of lunch and I had a healthy like nachos. And then I just couldn't stop eating. I need more will power ( Read more... )

242.8lbs. Again. It's like that soup ruined everything. I just want to get into the 230's already ( Read more... )

Made it 44 hrs, but then my best friend, cousin, and myself went to a Thai restaurant, against my will I might add. And I was forced to eat. If I didn't eat, she wouldn't. I had vegetable soup (207 according to MyFitnessPal) and 3-4 glasses of water. I started fasting again right after we were done eating, at 8pm. And I'm almost 2 hrs in. Pathetic ( Read more... )

242.8 lbs. (: 39 hrs into my fast. I just woke up like 30 minutes ago so I haven't had anything today ( Read more... )

24 hrs and 36 minutes into my fast. (: I think I'll keep going tomorrow. Oh god I want to lose weight so badly. I want to get into the 230's already. Dan asked me what I did today and I told him that I cleaned and fasted and had a lot more stuff to do. And he just said I bet. He didn't care that I fasted. I don't know if I'm happy about that or not ( Read more... )

Oh my god I am the WORST girlfriend ever! I forgot when our anniversary was! I had to freaking ask him. At least he remembered, my lovely boyfriend, Dan. He asked me out on June 7th so we've been going out for 2 months and 10 days. <3 I hate myself. I can't believe I fucking forgot, but I still remember my last 2 anniversary dates. Fuck, I'm a ( Read more... )