Friday nights make me so antsy. I should be celebrating, I'm a second semester senior at Drinkin Lincoln. I am sitting here, tangled between plans and phonecalls and social anxiety and feeling unwanted and it's all just rushing back and forth inside me. There is so much pressure bottling up, I feel like letting loose, I feel like laughing until it ( Read more... )

Adam looks like a pure cherub. He has porcelain skin and large blue eyes that he uses to demurely get a point across ( Read more... )

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1: Thin, sharp cheekbones, with big expressive eyes, soft eyebrows. Never really kissed a girl. Slender, with a magician or a scientists hands. Gesticulates heavily. Generally thought of as quiet. Builds machines for fun, blows up explosives. Goes bike riding alone in the middle of the night. Emotionally unaware but very yaccepting and forgiving. ( Read more... )

Orwell says somewhere that no one ever writes the real story of their life ( Read more... )

It is a fact that the unconcious mind controls all of our body's phyiscal regulations in perfect relation to the enviornment. Doesn't that prove the theory of "a collective unconcious?" A universal, wired in hum that tunes us into one another ( Read more... )

I dreamt I was camping in a huge wilderness area. I was swimming in a lake surrounded by tall plateaus of crumbling red rock. I was swimming naked, and could feel the salt from the water through my skin. I could see large seastars ringed by pulsating sea anenomes; pink, purple, blue. It felt like summer. The sun was incredibly bright, and I ( Read more... )

I know this boy who uses playfighting, threatening, and ridiculing as his only means of affection besides random outpourings of vocalized love when drunk or otherwise. It is difficult for me to understand this kind of bonding, because I am more conversational, and well - female. He is a realist, he says, and I believe he's a pessimist. Fridha Kahlo ( Read more... )

I have always been full of opposing chaotic forces. Most of them are positive and flow into creativity, but I often get tangled up in slightly obessive/compulsive cylces which can turn negative. As I get older, I worry about my capricious nature. I hope for it to level as the years go by and to avoid making the same mistakes over and over. ( Read more... )

Last night I had a blistering headache so I decided to take two aspirins. I fell asleep easily after that, still bruised and beaten from rugby practice. I woke up at three am from an intense nightmare ( Read more... )