does it ever work that way?? or do all friends just sort of fade out?? my best friend and i arent quite as close as we were so recently. paradigm shift...things fluxed and fucked. it sucks giving EVERYthing to your friend...your lover...the one person you trust more than anybody else...when they have *no* thing. No body. you give them every last ( Read more... )

So most of what I blog is just diary-esque ramblings. Alot of it is cathartic for me so its not always for others to *get* so much as for me to get it out ( Read more... )

fill my head and heart today. dont know why such a sudden heaviness has been placed there. i woke up this morning and reached over for boris, forgetting he wasnt there anymore. im still in denial that he is Really gone. he went with me Everywhere and thru Everything in my life. theres been SOOOO much death in my life. none has hurt as deep as ( Read more... )

As most people can tell, im not blogging on here all too often anymore. Its crazy fun to go back years ago and see what I was ranting and raving about back then ( Read more... )

NEW BELLYDANCE SUBMISSIONS NEEDED FOR BIG TOP MAGAZINE ( Read more... )

Wow..its been over a whole friggin' year since ive been on here. SOOOo much has happend i cant even go into details regarding it All ( Read more... )

thanks as always to those who email the crap outta me wonderin where i am! the past few weeks have taken a major toll on me. the lack of medical insurance surely could be the death of me and MANY others ( Read more... )

For the past few years ive had a difficult time finding the balance between not caring enough, and caring too much. I dont know why this is such a damn struggle for me ( Read more... )

So after going thru my playlist today and overwhelming sense of nostalgia hit me full force. I use to be sooo in love and have such great times with those i dated. here are some of the memories..and the thanks...in no particular order, just as they play their music in my head ( Read more... )

when did i become invisible??? why can you not see Me? i see you ( Read more... )