I have survived three days of touring Arizona with my father!!! We were so terribly rude to each other; I'm glad no one knows how bad it got. Things were said that should not be repeated, I'll leave it at that ( Read more... )

I have lost connection to my life. I do plenty every day and don't feel like hurting myself. Let me be clear that I do not mean to be whining and don't want anyone worrying ( Read more... )

I love working (particularly working BOOKS) and all but I need to find something pleasing to do that is steady. I can't get excited about any careers (bike repair experience, carpentry assistant, landscapingbut I really need to figure out a major direction and I need it now. I'm pretty good with my hands, perhaps I can be a locksmith. Also I've ( Read more... )

Looking for a job is a pain in the ass and everybody knows it. Is it even realistic thinking that I can find a good job in Bellingham? I just want to be gainfully doing something with myself. If anyone has any leads or any good ideas please feel free to share ( Read more... )

There are a few things I still have to do in NY but I've been emotionally ready to go back to Washington for days. I will be back on the 11th, but not until the late evening.

I have been trying to make a list of things that make me happy and are (for lack of a better phrase) "reasons to live." Anyone have any ideas other than just naming people who care about me and want me to keep living? The job really isn't doing it right now. Thanks and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I feel so shitty but I've been smiling at people for over four hours. This job isn't the reason that I'm down but it doesn't help. I'm starting to feel like an automaton.

I have a job and it is good. Or at least, everything seems manageable and all the other employees seem nice so far. So I worked 8 hours today; pretty good for a first day. Most of that time was running the register, without any supervision. I think I'm going to fit in pretty well over at Terra Organica. Hopefully, I'll get a raise pretty soon too.

There is a cancer, a cyst in my chest; filling up with all the emotion, passion, desire, pain that I lock away. I try to run from it but I carry it around everywhere I go, ignoring it as best I can. Every now and then (always at the worst time) it bursts and I start crying for no rational reason. I can't help it. I cannot cry at the times when it ( Read more... )

I think I just finished the last thing necessary to graduate from Western.

Now what the fuck do I do???