I'm at the library before work and it just seems to me that livejournal is totally useless. Apart from the few people who I can kinda follow with it, I would probably never use this or post on it. I am not really a journaler. Hope you are staying warm. Be well whomever actually reads this!

I've been enjoying so many of my friends, the new and the old. I am so f-ing lucky to have these friends. Some other friends, though, seem to have dropped off the face of the universe. For those latter friends, I am still here when you need me just get in contact cause I'm sick of being the only one reaching out. And if that sounds a little angry ( Read more... )

Bellingham is still so sweet. I wish I had enough sugar to sweeten everyone's lives.

Unfortunately, I put all the sugar into a batch of blackberry wine; so I'll have to get everyone a little drunk instead.

Can you be aware that you are being manipulated and still go along with it happily?

Maybe, but it doesn't seem to last very long.

Celebration is a state of mind but it really helps to get into that state when there are a lot of other people in that same state and they are right around you and you can fully interact with them. On that note, Happy Fourth of July: lets get celebratory-minded about this nation not being completely ruled by the rich or the british or the ( Read more... )

I am done being emotionally compromised. The things that I thought I wanted I don't really want. I need to just relax and focus on living and being the best ben I can be. Everything else will fall into place.

I guess no one read or liked my last post cause there were no comments, and I thought I was somewhat eloquent. Whatev

Nighttime turns to morning so quickly ( Read more... )

I am sick of my father, but that's nothing new. I am fairly certain that this holiday season holds nothing special in store for me. So far I have been able to avoid falling hopelessly into intractable depression but I need a job and some meaning to my life. I want to thank the people who are still friends because I really appreciate them. I see ( Read more... )

I may eventually be okay, but right now from my perspective everything is fucked. Things will be better when I can get a good nights rest.

I'm pretty sure that tonight I am finally leaving Seattle to go up to Bellingham for a while. I have so much to do but I'm not getting much of anything done here. I know what needs doing and I know I'm actually on it from here on ( Read more... )