i have all this sexual energy and i don't know what to do with it ( Read more... )

joy is being understood. and accepted. and loved.

its amazing how quickly things and feelings can change. also how much the weather affects the mood that i'm in. it would really suck to be living in cuba or jamaica because where do they go during a hurricane? into the ocean? they can't come to america that's for damn sure ( Read more... )

i dont even know who i would feel comfortable enough to talk to about this. i don't understand it. i have never had to deal with something like this before. i think the reason that this is so upsetting to me is that it is just such a blow to my ego ( Read more... )

between today and the last post i made in this livejournal i have learned so much about myself. i don't know why i pretty much gave up on this journal.... maybe the fact that i am getting distracted by the prospect of making blueberry/raspberry stew and putting it on angel food cake is a good indicator.

everything in my life is so perfect right now. i don't want to risk jeopardizing one single moment of enjoying that. yesterday i received an invitation to do something and in my heart i really wanted to go, but the small threat of feeling something negative, even if only for a split-second, is what caused me to not take the person up on their ( Read more... )

i haven't been rocking as hard as i used to
this upsets me
hm

joseph and i have been virtually living together for the past 2 weeks. it is beautiful and so much less difficult than i had imagined, purely because he is the man he is, being incredibly understanding and sensitive and unselfish and intelligent and fun and strong. last night i went out with some friends and when i came home there he was, smiling ( Read more... )

wow. not cheating takes effort.

i am willing to make the effort.

i want it to be warm, and i want to take a road trip adventure with some good music and some pretty scenery ( Read more... )