computer crashed a while ago, but i fixed it i am SO smart- kidding. well, had one of the hardest weeks in my recent memory. i had nothing but coffee and apples i think the first day of my restriction period, the after thati slept alot, did alot of school work. food was about the only thing on my mind for the firstfew days, then i didnt feel ( Read more... )

fuck a da fuck

gunna post stats every day or two so i can follow my progress/regression ( Read more... )

i'm up to 112 again. i'm giving myself a deadline: 105 again by April 1st. if i eat nothing i lose weight fast. lots of exercise, coffee, water, and only apples. i have to do this. i'd rather not eat and notice a little weight change than enjoy food on any level. also, this isn't my motivation or anything, but i might get set up with a guy, he's ( Read more... )

just got back from my best friends F&CK i stayed there for the weekend. tried to eat minimal, but her moms always worried about me bacause her daughter justlost about 20 pounds, and she was skinny to begin with... she told me if i didn't eat something i'd blow away :)there's always healthy food there, so at least i wasn't eating burgers or fries or ( Read more... )

not doing so well lately, mentally... hanging out with my old friend, and it's crazy, we haven't really even spoken for almost half a year, and now it's like we hadn't separated atall :) it's awesome, i love having a friend whom you have so much in common. we used to be in kick boxing together, but quit when we stopped hangin out, now we're goin ( Read more... )

my mom just bought a new scale yesterday, our old one broke; there hasn't been a scale in this house for over a week, i had to weigh myself at a friends house and i was 114 last time i weighed in. i've been sticking to the soup thing, before that the cereal thing, i weighed myself tis morning: 109! i am so excited. i'm ecstatic:):). i'm at my goal ( Read more... )

seeing an old friend tonight. she and i haven't hung out for months and months. we stopped hanging out because she got angry because i started hanging out with a guy she liked, that dissed her. i know i'm going to have a long talk with her, i hope it works out, i really want to be friends again, she's awesome. well, all i ate today was 3 coffee's ( Read more... )

i fu!*in hate being sick. i lose weight because i only eat once or twice a day, really small things like soup or a slurpee.. then i gain it back. but i'm determined to not gain the weight back after i get better. down to 114 now, lowest i've been for a long time, and i mean to keep it off. maybe i'll try to stick to soup for another week or so, see ( Read more... )

had a weird week... went on dex again, 2 days later(today) lost almost 5 pounds, it's like a fat burner pill, it doubles your metabolism :)... also only had coffee, good old pickles, and 2 tiny tiny servings of rice in the last2 days... i used to be able to pinch a couple of inches on my waist when i stood up, but now i can barely grab anything, i' ( Read more... )