It's almost funnyy.  So motivated and then FAIL.
Probably ate 2200 cals yesterday, then this morning MCDONALDS.
Ill write this shiatt down anyway so i can see it.

egg&cheese mcmuffin: 300 cals 14 f
hashbrown:  150 cals 9 f
iced hazelnut coffee: 183 cals 7.5 f
soooo i guess im feeling some very low low low low low low FAT foods today.

Summer is finally here and i'm officially graduated.
My body is major sucking and def. not ready for summer.  Currently 5'3'' and 157 pounds.  This whole restricting for months and binging for months thing isnt really working (obviously).  So new plan.  Start by eating healthily.  Once I have that down, restricting should be easier and most likely ( Read more... )

2 weeks of epic failure but im back:
stayed home from school today cause i feel like shitttttt.

Intake so far:
B: nothing
L: healthy choice chicken noodle: 200
1/3 cup dried, sweet cranberries : 130

Dinner will hopefully a small salad and probably a smoothie later.
:)

intake:
blueberry bagel with strawberry cream cheese
1 piece of bacon =
580

so i guess nothing else today.  plus that fat count it at like 30g i would imagine.

wow.  maybe some soup broth later to keep the metabolism up.

the past 4 days have been really bad.  i need to get back on track.

i should have just not woken up today.
what the fuck.

binge fest. like 3000 cals.
i feel disgusting. 

B: potatos, cheese, eggs thing. = 400
L: 6 inch chickeb breast on wheat with ranch 450
D: the other 6 inches.  2 pieces of bacon 450 + 100
S: 1 piece of chocolate = 50
D: rasberry nestea, coke= 300

= 1750.

FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FUCK.

snow = noexercise.....................great.

So, my stomach has hurt all day which sucks.  I barely did anything in gymm.  Ran 2 laps and thats about it.
I have a headache..again.  I need to figure out what is giving me these migraines.  It's every other day.  Maybe it's my  new prescription.  whatever.

intake:
L: lebanon bologna sandwich : 500  2 carrots, 1 piece of celery (50)
D: grilled ( Read more... )

Senior skip day means buffet breakfast which means EPIC FAIL.

I literally couldnt even tell you have of what I ate this morning.  I feel disgusting.  Its 4 and I am still not hungry. LIke, that is sickening.  Not to mention last night after an amazingly low cal day, I ate velveta, ramen, and oreos at a sleepover.
fuck this.
fuck this.
fuck this.

my ( Read more... )

So lately, I have been restricting like always and seeing no results.  I am 160.  Always and forever.  Senior week is in 15 weeks and I need to be down to 130 at the most.  I need a flat stomach.  I need smaller thighs.  I need tiny wrists.  Where are my collar bones?  I miss them.  Where is my spine ( Read more... )

I think I will post this failure of a day.  Just so I have to look at it ( Read more... )