damn stuffy nose...sniffles. "smile for me daddy, let me see your grill" lol okay had to get that out. so things with jaime are done. no more latin guys. period. he had his niece tell me things were over, lol. yeah okay. i believe things were squashed in november. and dumb me believed his lies. welp, i'm done and over with it, and i'm happy just ( Read more... )

"don't try and take the only part of me ( Read more... )

i haven't been sleeping well lately. it must be a stress thing. anywho, as much as i want to be coming home for x-mas, i just don't think it's in the cards, so instead i most likely will be going to see my pops and pam. not that i am complaining, because i miss them too, just that a certain special person is coming home and i wanted to see them, oh ( Read more... )

okay this is long overdue, so bare with me. this isn't meant for any one individual, this is meant for everyone that i am blessed to have in my life. tomorrow is a day of thanks, and i want to express my thanks right now. just because there's a holiday for thanks, doesn't mean you can't express it the other 364 there are in a year. i am the ( Read more... )

so thursday night i went out with my frined from work, Sabra. we met up with her friend from school and went to this place called Tiki. 4 drinks into it, and the girls were having a talk about how much we loved each other. but this very nice guy bought me a drink. it was cool. next weekend, me, sabra, and melody are all going out saturday. i'm ( Read more... )

hello, hello, hello all. i'm back from my mini vaction to nj. btw, the wedding was absolutely beautiful. jenn looked like an angel. it was so amazing, it almost made me want to get married....almost. anyway, jaime was very surprised to see me, hehe it worked. i also got to meet his mom and his grandmother. that was a special moment. they are some ( Read more... )

i'm overwhelmed with feelings: scared, upset, tired...i have a pit in my stomach...i miss jaime so much, but i feel like we talk too often. i want when i talk to him, that it's this wonderful thing...i don't wanna become that nagging voice, that phone call that's dreaded. i want to be looked-forward to, you know? anyway, mom is moving out of freddy ( Read more... )

i'm feeling pretty good today. everyone is excited that i'm coming home soon. i can't wait to see my mom, and have some good ol' filipino cookin'. cuz i'm just not cutting it even remotely close to my ma's. jaime's being a dork, but it's cool. i've decided that i'm buying a car next month, it's gonna kill me to make payments, but i'll get another ( Read more... )

God, I pray to you, not for me, but for someone who needs guidance. God, I ask you to watch over him and give him that strength to make it through another day. Give him that strength to be the man he needs to be for him, and for his daughter. God, just bless him with your knowledge and courage. Watch over him, as he starts this new part of his life ( Read more... )

how is it that i feel all the love in the world, yet i still feel like something's wrong, like i don't deserve to be this happy? all my life, everything i've done always seemed to go unappreciated, and the love i wanted, never seemed like it existed, and now i have something, someone that gives me that, but i can't leave the idea of i don't deserve ( Read more... )