so I got my job downtown, I havent started yet but i already love the idea of it. the only downfall is the whole leaving my house an hour early shit. i wish i could wake up and be at lloyd center to take the max downtown. but im really excited, everyone seems pretty nice.. but everyone has seemed pretty nice at my other jobs and that always bit me ( Read more... )

alright so a small change from the bliss of my last post. i am so fucking irritated with my parents, they drive me fucking crazy. either i spend all day picking up their fucking messes just for them to come home and fuck it all up again, or they're home. and when they're home, Im pretty much confined to my room unless i want to get asked a million ( Read more... )

so i went out on a date last night... which was EXTREMELY fun! not that we did anything fun, but it was nice to connect with someone new on a different level. I've been trying this new thing lately where i do things by myself. i guess being independent is something guys like in a woman. or at least the guys i talk to. and i talk to hot dirty guys. ( Read more... )

so a ton of things in my life have been changing over the last couple months. it seems like since lu and I met the dudes, our genre of life has changed to something better and more real... whether it involves them or not. theres a funny transition happening in relationshipville, mark and I are no longer an item (which is decided best for our ( Read more... )

its really sad that most people never get the chance to truly get to know themselves before settling down for the rest of their lives. Im just happy that in the future, I know that everything amazing that I strive for will actually happen. Im really excited that lucy and I are going to hopefully invest enough into each other that it will bring us ( Read more... )

so. i just found out that lauren, who is supposed to be one of my best friends.. is talking shit about me behind my back like shes a fucking professional shit talker. telling my only actual best friend that im not as good of a hairdresser as i think i am?? that im actually not that good? that she is BETTER than me? well let me tell you something. ( Read more... )

so the first thing that everybody needs to realize about me is that I take a lot of shit seriously AND personally so when sometimes small things happen, i really take them to heart because it means more to me than it does to other people and get really pissed and sometimes explode. anybody who's known me regularly for longer than 6 months probably ( Read more... )

alright so tonight was %100 shitty. i got mad at everybody for a different reason tonight and im still mad at each and every one of thjem. shit like this keeps happening to me and the only solution i have is to run away.... move away to some place outside of driving distance so that I can start all over and something else. a new stephanie sousa. ( Read more... )

tonight was TERRIBLE! exactly like the last time i drove when the girls went out... my car got covered in vomit! holy shit the most discusting thing i have ever had to deal with. like sophie puked so much that she managed to coat the inside and outside in chunks and i physically couldnt drive. what a terrible night. this was a terrible night. and ( Read more... )

so ty messaged me on the space today and its the first time he's made contact with me since he made it blatently clear that im a fat loser and hes now with somebody better. he says that he misses me and said it isnt life without me. strange, isnt it? i told him to prove it ( Read more... )