My stomach hurts. I have nothing to say ( Read more... )

Fuck this. I don't want to be this way, but the idea of sleeping without you tears me up. Insides out. I would spill my guts on the floor, but you're the only person I feel comfortable sobbing in front of. I am crying in our bed, not bothering to wipe the tears because I'm tired and soon is never soon enough ( Read more... )

Google is telling me it's 78 degrees and it's not even 10AM. What the fuck is that shit? I am awed that Boston chose to skip straight from Spring into Summer, weather-wise. Half the trees outside don't even have leaves on them yet and it's already ridiculously hot outside ( Read more... )

I've been high since 3PM and I stopped smoking at 5PM. Alyssa smoked me up and fed me and was generally really wonderful. I didn't have anything to talk about because I was too stoned and tired ( Read more... )

So I filled up my head with dreams of you. Projections of the future and the past, tangling all the love stories I had ever heard into something that was silver-rimmed and tasted like saltwater. I supposed you to be the sea, cold and chaotic, but calm beneath the surface. I would float on your existence or tether myself to the buoys that became ( Read more... )

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+I need a job because I'm broke ( Read more... )

There's a lot of shit in my life that is dragging me down. At this point William is the one who hears the majority of my complaints and definitely the only one I feel comfortable saying most of my personal shit to. I am incredibly lucky to have someone who regards all my insane and spiteful ramblings with such quiet understanding. When we drove ( Read more... )

I'm over it. Really and truly. I want to scream at so many people, but it's a waste of time. Stop tiring me out with your bullshit. People always marvel at how exhausted I am, but the truth is when you take everything in and let so little out, it just wears you down.

I can't wait to go across the country.


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I'm really fucking cold, but I don't really want to use the heat until it's absolutely necessary AKA when William gets here and bitches non-stop until I inch the thermosat up to 60 ( Read more... )