Firstly ill appologise for such a long length of time without a post, its not easy being a mum, i find my spare times filled up now with repeatedly saying muffins and other random words that make my beautiful little bundle of joy laugh hysterically =) For Photos go to myspace.com/bexehbaybee and shes there ( Read more... )

Things are going okay now, home situations sorted and all that, now im just concentrating on the baby, got just over 8 weeks left, im really scared, started the antenatal classes now, their a bit stupid but you know if ur like me and never really held a new born they help ( Read more... )

Family Photos =)

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Guess whos 21?yes, believe it or not, thats me ( Read more... )

Had another antenatal appointment today, it went well, they told me im 17 weeks 3 days pregnant and im still in my UK size 8 jeans, im a skinny mummy for now, wait till i balloon over night, that should be fun, im sure they call it 'blooming'. This journal is mainly going to be about my pregnancy now although if it bores you dont leave cause im ( Read more... )

Things are looking up, with every high theres a low but im generally seeing better things for the future. Im still the same me who hurts herself but im trying to get away from releasing my pain in that way. I want to join a yoga class for yummy mummys and maybe an aqua natal class. something relaxing and beneficial to me ( Read more... )

Ive been feeling really low recently, i cant help but think Tolgas never going to change and never gonna be there for me. I really need his support but hes having difficulty changing his ways, maybe when we go for the scan on wednesday and it all becomes more real he'll change but so far its really hard. Things are going quite bad at the minute. I ( Read more... )

I found out 2 weeks ago. Were both really happy & its what we want. It wasnt planned but its neither a mistake ( Read more... )

I hadnt touched cocaine in 2 weeks, or any drug for that matter apart from 1 alcaholic drink, untill last night that is. Went out without as much as a penny in my pocket & ended up pillin', pissed & well and truly coked up. Tolga managed to get 100 pills on tick untill monday, all it will cost is £80, which is really cheap so were gonna be making ( Read more... )

The last 2 wks have been hectic but great!!

22nd - 23rd July - The Big BirthdayThe eve of Tolgas birthday... we decided to road trip down to Nottingham with Little Miss Natalie who is a superstar hard house DJ, she had a set to play at venue so we were there untill about 1am, got back to Manchester about 3am, chilled at Ryans flat until we headed ( Read more... )