i went to the doctor today (mom dragged me) because my stomach hurt (from too many laxs)...well he concluded that i have an intestinal flu (which i don't)...but he did give me medicine that makes stomach cramps go away!!!...you know what this means??? i can take as many as i want and if my tummy hurts...take a lil syrup!...hehehe oh and i got a ( Read more... )

well today all i had to eat/drink was 4 litres of water...mmmm..i took one dexatrim result and 2 extreme leans...then i went to the gym for 2 hours after school..then went to the park with bean where we ran 3 miles and walked about 2...then i came home and did a ten minute boot camp tape and a ten minute kickboxing tape...now i'm off to do my ( Read more... )

well i was sick all weekend...so i stayed home..which meant there was no way of getting out of eating..of course i did take about 25 lax yesterday...so i don't feel THAT suicidal about it...but anyways..today i felt a little bit better so i ran 5 miles outside..it was fun actually..i'll do that some more...and i did some aerobics when i got back.. ( Read more... )

so my best friend bean always writes stuff about me and herself and whoever on the bathrooms and it's funny...today she writes "sara is pro-ana"...not like everyone doesn't already fuckin know due to the events that took place a few days ago...i hate this...it's so hard to keep secret...rrrrr i just wanna cut away all the weight i want to lose and ( Read more... )

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well i read my horoscope and it said that today i will be going in between whether or not to tell people things or keep them secret...well i told a friend (who "understands" my ed) about the 20 lax and she's really mad...now i'm depressed because of it..but luckily i don't eat when i'm depressed...i can't eat...i guess that's what you call looking ( Read more... )

well i'm 108-107 right now thank god...i don't think i could handle anymore reminder of how much i ate yesterday...bleh...hope everybody else is feeling good today!

let's just say i broke a 48 hour fast....and i mean shattered it..pancakes, a smoothie, an orange, two pop tarts, two oreos, and a few bites of chicken and pasta...god i'm such a fucking cow...i just weighed myself and i gained two pounds eating all the food, ugh...109...i had a fever today so i got to the gym but i couldn't stay...so i took 20 ( Read more... )

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after worrying about my binge at lunch...and then working out...along with 14 laxatives..i weighed myself this morning and i lost a pound!!! yay! 108....100 is not far at all! wish me luck!