my fast lasted 62 hours and then i totally binged...5 donuts and 2 peanut butter cookies...i tried to purge but no go...so i just took 14 laxatives instead...today i threw up again (before the binge)...in the hallway at school..i felt like a little kid..but i haven't eaten anything since the donuts so i'm not as upset anymore..and i went to the gym ( Read more... )

well i woke up really late today so i had some energy..but i took two dexatrim results with my vitamin and it made me throw up...weird, since i have never thrown up from that before...eh oh well i feel fine now and i'm not hungry either! hour 44 of my fast!

my boyfriend broke up with me because we haven't talked in three weeks...why haven't we talked? because when he calls me i'm at the gym and i would rather go to the gym then call him on my free time...oh well...my body is more important anyways...i mean i am stuck with it until i die..while boyfriends come and go

well here's what's new with me ( Read more... )

wow..it's really been a long time..i am proud to say that i go to the gym everyday for at least 2 and a half hours...and then come home to exercise more...i am so proud of myself...new fast starts today!!!

wow it's been a long time since i've posted in here..mostly because i'm ashamed of the fact that i make it the whole day not eating then i eat dinner...not a lot..but still i get upset..right now i'm taking a dexatrim natural (green tea) and a dexatrim results 3 times a day....i got hydroxycut too but i think i'm gonna use up the dexatrim first... ( Read more... )

i have a boyfriend now. his name is chris and i was "talking" with him this summer but then i drank and it broke his heart that i broke a promise..i ran into him at the pool hall on saturday night..and i was so happy to see him...i gave him a hug and didn't even want to let him go...the feelings i have for him go back to my sophomore year of high ( Read more... )

i am a fat fucking cow..i ate a salad, 6 pieces of bread and a piece of chocolate cake today...what the fuck was i thinking?!?!?!...i did work out for 3 hours tonight though...that has to make up for at least the bread....i hope...tomorrow...more diet pills and no food...and more exercise....yes..definitely exercise...

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well..i did it..i ate and then threw it up..and i felt so strong after...like...now i know that if i really want to..i can get rid of food just like that...but i'm scared too..i hope that my mind doesn't all of a sudden start rationalizing eating..because calories are all bad to me...it doesn't matter if i throw them up or not...but then i ( Read more... )

well i'm really proud yet annoyed today...first off my food intake...2 diet pepsis and 4 bottles of water (so far)...went to the gym for two hours...and then i came home to take a shower..i know that i'm getting my period tomorrow but i got so pissed when i saw myself in the mirror..even though it upset me..it has kept me from controlling myself ( Read more... )