Should I care? Should I really give a shit? I guess I just don't enjoy being a fucking baby sitter when I could be doing something else, something I'd like instead. But then I find myself in quite a conundrum, a shimley-bob if you will. I am just like that sometimes, sometimes worse than others. Its just how I am. And I know I cannot judge one on ( Read more... )

I feel incredible sometimes. I really like her. I will gladly be the fool.

Watched some Hamlet but stopped cause I wanted to talk to Carol. We're going out now. I'm actually really, genuinely happy about it. First time in awhile, relationship wise.

Good day. Silent Hill was awesome. Saw it with Joe, Ryan, Mike, Dani, and Carol. Was tons of uber fun. The whole movie was good. I want to be barbed wire and kill people, or a pyramid head. Held Carol's hand in the movie, kissed her goodbye. I hope she likes me. Silent Hill, once again, was awesome.

I feel alone. Bout of depression I suppose. From where? Apprehension I suppose, old memories as usual would be the main guess, a song, something. Surprise? Not really. But the surprise? Very. Life is full of shit. I just wish I could take a shit on it. I hope Carol likes me. My favorite song right now is Naked by the Computer ( Read more... )

I never realized how much people talk. Especially about things they shouldn't. Especially when they should know their opinions don't mean shit. And not to say that it bothers me that they have opinions. It just pisses me off they care to share them. If everyone wanted my opinion there'd be alot of angry people, or they may not care. As they shouldn ( Read more... )

Carol's cool. Hung all day with her. Argh. Tired.

Today had some odd events, not really events I suppose, but feelings. Stayed in again cause I was sick again, doctors, yada yada yada, then to work. Work was ok, I closed. I never mind closing because work like that is easy to me, I just hate doing things for customers, having to deal with them, or their business. Visited Aaron and Shalyn, Shalyn ( Read more... )

Practice today, new song, so far we have an intro and a chorus that I enjoy alot. The drum part is awesome, shane likes it alot, its with the triplet beats (1andA2andA3andA4andA) that I've been working on forever. Lamb of God does them alot and I'm so proud of myself that I can do them in songs now. Other than that, I don't know why I find myself ( Read more... )

No fucking water pressure. Took a shower that took about an hour bit by bit with handfuls of water from a fucking showerhead. I cannot fucking live like this. But I am. And I haven't had a smoke in 2 days. What the fuck is wrong with me? I wish I had a six pack.