I had to write somewhere tonight. I don't know what the hell brought it on, but all of a sudden I began to think of my grandfather and how distant from everything I've been all my life. Like him, I've always tried hard to distance myself from emotion or attatchment. That was his code. When he finally let himself love, and to be loved, he died. And ( Read more... )

Hahah Im so unbelievably indecisive. I decided to just leave it at that. Life is fine. Im broke but im content. Chill.

I hate women. I really do. Because men and women will never understand each other, and if they ever do, the universe will implode. I just spent the past two hours trying to untangle the shoestring-jumble of a conversation that one female put into the head of another female, regarding myslef and the later female's relationship. I'll note that the ( Read more... )

*Repeatedly bangs head against wall*

I don't know. Its's wierd. Things just seem so normal lately. I never imagined things could change so much in less than a year but...yeah. I'm absolutely happy where I am. Sure, I feel a bit stagnant, but that can be easily remedied ( Read more... )

I convinced myself that I would never be able to say I loved someone.I guess sometimes though, without even conciously realizing it, someone becomes such a part of your life that you start to feel for them. Even if just an inkling, you know inside that that person cares for you, and you for them. Yes, audience...it happened not all that long ago. ( Read more... )

I don't know why I didn't get out of the car in Westchester.Or why it was in my wallet.Or why we stopped for the ducks. I don't know why I didn't hide it. I guess it was just the wrong place at the wrong time. But this could fuck up so much for me, and possibly for the rest of my life. The funny thing is that I'm strangely comfortable with that. Im ( Read more... )

Every 14th of February you get the chance to display your fondness for your wife or girlfriend by showering her with gifts, flowers, dinner, shows and any other baubles that women find romantic ( Read more... )

I've discovered why it is that I do all the things I do. especially the addictive things. The harmful things. The stupid, pricey, chemicals that i've grown to know and love so well ( Read more... )

I also hate snobby, entiltled little sluts whose lives are all sugarplums and unicorns purely because of the fact that they make everyone else's existences unbearable.