First of all, Madison downloaded a LJ client thing that is on our computer so she could update her journal without having to be on the website. She has her password written in there. I know her password regardless because she's scatterbrained and has one password that she uses for everything.. it's the password we use to sign onto the computer and ( Read more... )

Hello everyone... My name is Jason, I'm Madison's fiance. You've all probably heard about me because Maddie always talked about you guys. And while I've never visited the website I know a lot about you girls. And I guess that's why I'm here. Because I know you know Madison in ways I couldn't even imagine knowing her. And I know you guys were her ( Read more... )

When i get married.. I want to wear an off the shoulders dress.. I want it to be poofy and cinderella like. I want to get married outside... possibly by a country club or something. Perfect white chairs all perfectly aligned. A white cloth aisle with pink rose petals on it. A gazebo or tralis or something pretty and pink rose full where Jason would ( Read more... )

I feel like crap. I can't move. No energy whatsoever. I had an apple and strawberries and some low fat cool whip on the strawberries. I don't understand why I'm feeling so terrible ( Read more... )

i rollerbladed for an hour, did 30 minutes of ab work, and took Ania for a walk for an hour and half. I ate 1/3 of a cup of chicken fried rice.. about 300 calories. (I'm rounding up just b/c that's what I do) I need to eat another hundred but I had some gatorade. So I'm sure I reached my minimum of 400. I know I didn't yesterday.....so i made a ( Read more... )

Just took the puppy for a walk.. i get stopped by everyone!! She's soo freaking cute everyone wants to pet her... she's so damn cute I'm gonna show you guys.. her pics will be at the end of this entry...

I'm not doing as well as I hoped I would have at this recovery thing.. I eat a little now.. but my metabolism has kicked back up into high gear ( Read more... )

so.. I'm in the hosptial... I lost consciousness walking to the clinic the other day. Someone called 911.... who knows what would have happened if they didn't. I have a concussion but they say I'll be ok. They've severely worried about my weight but I told them that I'm going to the clinic and I'm working on it... they still don't seem happy. ( Read more... )

I don't know what to write. But feel I owe it to you girls to write. Despite everyone's well wishes and encouraging words, I feel so lost and dangling in the world of therapy. I'm not sure how one's supposed to be feeling exactly when they're dangling.. but it's the closest that describes this.Today was good though, very good... I ate another "meal ( Read more... )

it's really late.. Jason's sleeping.. and I'm online pouring my heart out ( Read more... )

my mom is a cold bitch ( Read more... )