I weighed myself early. normally I weigh myself once a week but at 78 lbs.. I think I need help. A lot of you guys seem concerned and I'm starting to worry too. Jason came home and I told him that I need help. I'm gonna go to a clinic tomorrow. Check myself in for a while. Maybe I'll even call my parents.. but they'll worry what'll do for their " ( Read more... )

omg.. my heart is going crazy. I don't know what's going on. I can't calm down. I didn't take any pills either. This is so scary. I've such a terrible headache too. Has this happened to any of you? If so can you help? I don't want to go to the doctor because he'll know there's something wrong with me. I don't want to tell my boyfriend b/c he'll ( Read more... )

i almost passed out rollerblading. My heart started beating so fast and the world started spinning. And I thought I was gonna loose it. So I sat down on the sidewalk and drank some of the gatorade I brought with me. I felt a little better. Took it easy on the way home. I think that's all the excercise I'm gonna do today. It's bad b/c that's only an ( Read more... )

this is from when I was a lil over 90 lbs. I don't have a digital camera anymore b/c Jason left it at his sisters when he went to visit.. grrr.. i'll get it back and take more I'm sorry... these are bad too b/c it's hard to take pics of yourself I've noticed !!

( stomach )

9 hour day of work= 1450 calories burned
1 3inch pancake= 48 calories

1,402 calories burned today so far girlies.. and it's only 3 PM. To loose another pound I need to keep burning those suckers...

didn't eat today.. good thing? bad thing? still don't know ( Read more... )

I'm kinda happy... after a few days of bite and spit. I've managed to eat a piece of toast and 3 pieces of celery. Plain.. but it still feels like something. I feel so heavy. But the smile on Jason's face was worth it... kinda of ( Read more... )

OMG..... Guys... I just flipped out. My boyfriend left the apartment b/c he couldn't be here any longer and listen to me go on. I think I officially LOST MY MIND ( Read more... )

weigh day was today... I lost 5 more pounds. Puts me at a pretty good pace. Especially now since I'm working out more. The boyfriend came home. He's getting worried. Watches me constantly. But as long as I take my eggo before work, he doens't bitch. Little does he know i feed it to the dog down the street. Energy is impossible to muster anymore. ( Read more... )

so I'm down to 87... part of me wants to stop fasting now. But I can't ( Read more... )