I wish I had control over things. I wish I was as strong as an ox, I mean, that is my chinese zodiac sign, so why can't I carry my yoke like one? What is it I'm lacking? Is this desperation? My head is staying above the water, so I suppose I'm alright, but it hurts a lot to know that my feet aren't touching the ground. Last night's late night ( Read more... )

Ever seen something that just pumps you up beyond belief? It's almost bed time, but I want to head back to the gym. GOD THIS SUCKS!!! Every time I run, I see the same face in my head, remember the same line and it burns me inside. Seriously, I don't even know this person but I hate him. It stinks, but this hatred pushes me so far. ( Read more... )

So the other day I was thinking to myself,"Why does everyone complain about gaining weight during the holidays?" I mean, I don't eat tamales every day, I don't eat ham every day, I don't eat mashed potatoes every day, so what is everyone talking about?!?! Then today, it hit me. Hit me hard. DAMN YOU, CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE!!! I love you so much ( Read more... )

i saw jeffrey sebelia on the way to work today. he was about... three blocks from my office when i saw him and his long, tattooed neck. he didn't drive nearly as nice a car as i thought he would drive. eh.

it feels like winter now, with a strong blast coming from the north.  i can feel the icy fingers on my body, squeezing my heart, but everybody knows they're not jack frost's.  what have i done, where will i be, how will i get there?  i hate this code talking just so that my feelings aren't misconstrued, but i suppose that's what has to happen ( Read more... )

i don't know what to write, but i know i want to write. maybe this will end up as a song. on that note, i will say i've been playing my guitar lately and last night, i learned an amazing song: closedown by the cure. good stuff. goodbye, ya'll.

So, as usual, I was using YouTube as my radio at work and one of the songs, pieces, etc. I wanted to listen to was the theme from Brokeback Mountain. Strange, I know, but it's good stuff. Anyway, as I was watching it, I kind of realized something. Now, when me and the gal watched the movie together, we both didn't really like it and not for ( Read more... )

Man, I rock in Fantasy Football. I started the season ranked 9th out of 10 and now? Freakin 4th. Eat my schwartz!!! I'M STUCK IN A COMA...

when was the last time i wrote in this thing? sheesh. yesterday, i realized the reason why i don't write anymore is because i like to supress my feelings. i don't think i like to let them come out as much anymore. i remember senior year and the year after senior year were my most emotional years and i think after that, production's halted. it ( Read more... )

I'm drifting farther and farther away and she cries louder and louder, but the darkness doesn't let the sound get to my ears. my space suit is on and my helmet is only letting me breathe the fake air. yet, i'm still asking to wake me from the dead.