my mom jsut kicked me out of the house. for stuff that i didn't do, and stuff i didn't even know to do. isn't that jsut wonderful. my grandmothers memorial is here tomorrow, and im not even welcome in my own house. sweet. i know she's understress but she doens't have to blame it on me all the time. fuck. im so tired. i work anywhere between 8 and ( Read more... )

island beach today !!!!!! AND its raining. ibsp + rain = one hell of a day, although i have to be careful i don't fall asleep ( Read more... )

i just got word from my mother, actually i overheard her tellign someone on the phone that my grandmothers memorial service will be next sunday, incase any of you wanted to come. all are welcome. no need to wear black, just come like presentable. my family is having a private service, but after 12:30 in the afternoon all are welcome.

the thing ( Read more... )

sooooooooo....... im done with college! well for the most part, b/c of my grandma's death i haven't been able to well really do to much in class. SOOOO my math grade = horrible, so the best prof ever Mr. GOrdon said that he can give me an incomplete for now, but jsut as long as we get together and do it over the sumemr, which hey its fine by me. ( Read more... )

i don't really have much to say, other then im really kinda bored. they cut my hours down this week at prime time, something about how they aren't doiung well, but my hours got cut by freaking 12 man. that's like a good 80$ right there, psht im pissed, but other then that im actually in a lovely mood. just bored, because now ive got all this free ( Read more... )

so this is a pretty big week this week.

TOMORROW Tuesday MAY 9th, 2006
**3 weeks EXACTLY till ben gets here =)**
**going down to seaside to help ray unpack**
**one week after my grandmothers death, and im not too sure how im gonna take it**

WEDNESDAY MAY 10th, 2006
**LAST day of douchebag ENGLISH EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!**

Thursday May ( Read more... )

just like that, shes gone.

i just found myself in the same position that i once was in the summer before middle school. sitting at the top of my stairs with my kness pressed close to my chest, crying. last time i was younger and in my purple bathingsuit. this time im much older, and im in work clothes. but the feeling that i have is still the same ( Read more... )

you are everything to be. and i that god everyday and everynight for bringing you back into my life. i can't wait till i can be safe in your arms once more.

im so scared, and my mind is swarming with so many thoughts, that i can hardly make sense out of anything. i just need something to ease my worries. and i feel like i don't have friends anymore. not like the friends i had say this time 1 year ago. i need soemone i can talk to. someone who really cares, and who won't judge me. and well i don't think ( Read more... )