hey...im in a very confusing place at this point. i dont know what i want to do...ive been sober for nearly a week and i feel empty...i dont have much of feelings anymore..i. have detention in the morning...heres what has been going on for now. i met this girl when school started (KN)...she wants one of my best friends (JA). i wanted her..we're ( Read more... )

so heres where i am in life at the moment ( Read more... )

im preatty sure i know what i want...and im preatty sure im not going to get it. since after labor day ive been drunk 3-6 days out of the week. i dont like it...but i do at the same time. i know i shouldnt be doing this. drinking is no longer a just fun thing to do. it is now a way to put me to sleep. i cant stop thinking about one person and its ( Read more... )

alright...so ive been going to classes at columbia, record production and creating music, now...i love the classes, well i love record production, but theres this one girl in creating music who started sitting next to me a couple weeks ago and i would make fun of the teacher and shed turn around and laugh. shes preatty. and we started talking today ( Read more... )

im bored ( Read more... )

well...today was the first day since being arrested and i got to finally talk to everyone that was there...man was i hamm-oed it was insane. i guess i past out in the lawn at one point. it was preatty shitty. i feel like a fucking dick head...so yeah...i knwo im done with drinking for a while. so it dont matter...i cant take anything back. talk to ( Read more... )

I GOT ARRESTED ON FRIDAY! FUCK ( Read more... )

i realized i have to write more often. so im doing it. i like the way my life is going right now for the most part...i love the people i hang out with...i love partying with every one i do. i love being drunk when i can and life is really good...except for the fact that im still lonley and single. i hate that fact. i loev drinking but i hate ( Read more... )

this weekend was preatty weird ( Read more... )