but i'm gonna try. do. goodnight.

sad ( Read more... )

i wish i was a beautiful girl. that i had someone in my life who made me feel beautiful, sexy. that i had fun. that i had passion. that i had romance. that i had a spark. i wish.

i love the ridiculous, hot, mugginess of summer. i really do.

tonight, i really am tired of this and feel like i want to move on. this on and offness is surely a clue. but i honestly don't know what to do about it anymore. i'm just bored. and not feeling the "love" on either side. at least not how i imagine it should be feeling.

i almost have my master's degree and it makes me antsypantsy.

whatever happened to phone calls?

i have my comps next week on wednesday and i feel oddly calm about it. dr. winerock told me not to work hard for them, but i'm much too studious to do that. to the point where it's probably detrimental to my well-being. i over-think everything and do more than necessary most of the time, but for once i'm backing off. it's so pleasant, though! ( Read more... )

in order to maximize the most of my time next week, i want to get started on my big plans early ( Read more... )

ok. already feeling quite burnt out. progress is fast but the rest of me hardly has any time to catch up. better to be busy than idle. better to be busy than idle....must keep reminding myself of this.