I've ended up here, posting this, in a desperate need of expression. I am so incredably dissatisfied with "the college experience" it is fucking pathetic. I hate this shit words cannot articulate. I want to learn i, but this fucking school, sfsu, is killing my spirit. Every day I dream of not being where i am, being somewhere i've been. I get ( Read more... )

Goals for summer ( Read more... )

Coming from the ultimate procrastinator- I have noticed something fascinating about myself which i really think will be very valuable in the future. I don't mind doing homework! I almost -enjoy- doing it. Now for the ENORMOUS "BUT" BUT i have to be in the perfect environment. As of now, i've spent the past 20 hours in the library, minus and hour ( Read more... )

I will never be satisfied. What an unsettling thought. What a manifesting thought only to be self educed. What void needs to be filled to ease this notion I have for life. Are high standards something to be ashamed of? Are they bad? I need to escape my current being. This dissatisfaction is killing my happiness. Its so fucking painful not knowing ( Read more... )

For the past couple years i've wanted a tattoo, but i haven't been able to come up with anything that means remotely enough to me to want it permanently on my body. Through some intense thought i've made a very confident decision that i want a raised fist somewhere on my body permanently. With my obsession with both simplicity and unconventionalism ( Read more... )

Things on my mind ( Read more... )

current shit on my mind ( Read more... )

Goals for 2009 ( Read more... )

So at work I talked to this amazingly cool middle-aged woman from NEW ZEALAND. I don't know if i've expressed it on livejournal, but i have this obsession with wanting to live in new zealand- i really think/hope that's where my future lies. She said they're in a diear need of health professionals out there and that they're giving easy citizenship ( Read more... )

I really think I see my life coming together: personal mysteries are beginning to coagulate and the picture is almost visible. I might be figuring myself out... what an advanced satisfaction so early in life, this can't be true... i can't be right. With the stresses of finals right around the bend this month has taken my high-spirits will be ( Read more... )