Years have passed and I'm sleeping with weapons by the bed again. It's really hard to find a good place to live in vancouver.

So I went through a rough time these last few years. I spent close to a decade medicated for being just generally nuts. It was like wearing a mind-fogging helmet that forced me to behave. Which is good in that misbehaving can lead to death and things. The last 3 years in particular were marked by a chain of intense symptomatic relapses. I think I' ( Read more... )

I saw a filmmaker I know recruiting on facebook and looking for a non-white actor to be in a video about diversity at a university. A white guy in the thread stated that because there are so many non-white people at the university, using a white actor would be the best way to show diversity. But the reason the call was being made for a non-white ( Read more... )

Virtual identities and hypersigilism ( Read more... )

Life advice: Don't let other people's stupid life advice get you down.

Today I think I farted on a little kid by accident. The guilt I feel is balanced by the catharsis of knowing that there's not much more in this world I'll ever feel more guilty about. It can only go uphill from here.

I find that a lot of old friends have been reconnecting with me in the last while. They have been sitting down with me and telling me things. It's as if they were checking up on me or trying to teach me something. Sometimes it was coffee or lunch or a hike, but they felt like giving me the impression that they knew something about me that I didn't ( Read more... )

I've been on a grand adventure. The last two years has been a steady stream of weird events and insanity for myself and others. In the last year or so I've had like 4 psychotic events, 2 of which I was hospitalized for, one I endured in solitary isolation lasting several months through which I burned through my savings (I occasionally left my nest ( Read more... )

Clearly human civilization has dealt with mental illness before. Shakespeare knew what it was and so did many other major authors, philosophers and poets from now to antiquity. So why don't mental health professionals know how to deal with mental illness? Is there some doctrine in professional education that rules that professionals are best when ( Read more... )

This last year has been a bit of an adventure. It's now evident to me that I have a mental illness that's going to impair me for the rest of my life. Normal person things like careers and relationships don't really seem like they're going to be an option for me. I'm still on the fence about whether it would be safe for me to operate vehicles or ( Read more... )