I miss having fun like i had today. its that : its raining outside and people are doing silly things and i want kisses and sun and i just cant stop laughing at people like matt running so funny. i seriously had more fun today than i'd had in a long time, i'm sure i had more fun than the rest of everyone did but hell! thanks em, mike, and matt. ( Read more... )

so, i feel like i'm a joke to some people. its so shitty, like they test you to see what you'd do then laugh in your face. oh well i guess. so i had a crappy weekend for the most part. i saw my not so favorite person saturday. so fake so full of crap. oh well, i smiled and acted like i was happy too.. so i guess i was being fake too. but i ( Read more... )

that is such a famous line in a great book called slaughterhouse five. and so it goes.... it can mean so much, just to ponder the meaning of a word or phrase can be crazy. what about if the original meaning of the phrase or word now means something completely different, would the thinker-up-er be pissed? hmm.. i'm so dumb. lol ( Read more... )

So do you ever just act like your not upset when you are? or when people say things that hurt you and they dont notice it? or when people just do or say things that add to the feeling that your not important enough? There are some people in my life that i care so much about, and i know it doesnt come both ways. I know they dont care for me like ( Read more... )

I should be at school today, but i have a large paper due, so i'm at home doign that, well i'm on a break right now, but i will be doing it in a few minutes. Its ironic, well most of life is ironic. I'm skipping one school to do work for another. I have way to much work to do for this. i should have been doing it all along but i didnt and its ( Read more... )

Hey.. all :) so it was an eventful weekend, movies, work, boyfriend, and ... i should have worked on my paper, but i didnt. So for my comp class we have research papers due, and mine is on the divorce effects on children. its weird because most of these effects i didnt go through, and my parents divorce was worse than alot of them. It happens i

So life.. sucks at the moment, i'm just sad. I found out that someone sit there and let me blame someone else for something that they did. let me get upset with someone else, me the person who always overreacts, yelled at someone else for something the person sitting next to me did. I'm so blind i cant believe that i didnt see it comming. i ( Read more... )

i had so much fun last night. I enjoyed matt, i enjoyed dancing (so much my legs kill), i am so glad that matt came, even thought he really didnt want to. I'm glad me and jessie are talking again. i'm so glad :) i think about everything. lol.
At afterprom .... the rock wall kicked my ass.

Sometimes I wonder if i do enough. if i try hard enough, if i mean enough, if i am doing what i should. i wonder if things fail for me because i do things to make them fail, or if they are out of my hands. i wonder i things happen between me and matt because i didnt do something. i wonder if i am enough to ... make it work. or if while we are ( Read more... )

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