So i just read something and i wonder if they know..if they know what i've done or thought about them, and i dont even get called back. i dont know what else to do. i call every day, and i dont get called back. its a sign that she doesnt want to be my friend?? i hope not, but seriously how hard is it to call back? oh they are dating someone, ( Read more... )

i really didnt think of much. Well i was thinking... lol. well i was really, last night mike said that if matt didnt go to prom with me, that i would go with someone else, which is right. but is that the only reason matt is going? because he doesnt want me to go with anyone else? i hope not, i guess i want him to come because he wants to. ( Read more... )

i'm happy. i'm so happy right now. i didnt even get to spend very much time with him, but the time we did have was nice. i just enjoy being with him. his friends.. are awesome to, i mean i enjoying being with them, its not like "oh.. we have to hang out with them?" at all. i guess its a sign of a good relationship ( Read more... )

so, anyone ever notice how when you look foward to something it never is how it should be? like today for example, i didnt get to talk to matt yesterday due to a concert and today i only talked to him shortly because he was tired from the concert. well when i got home from work i call and he's not there.. and then i get home and check my email ( Read more... )

Work, yeah i worked today, and now i'm tired. i was really thinking about this today, how can you go from being everything to someone to a slut? i dont get it nor do i like it. i didnt want to hurt him, but i did and get over it. damn... life is so fucked up. i swear... why do you do this? i wouldnt never say the things you say to people, i ( Read more... )

So all... life isnt as bad as it was. matt came over tonight and my mom was nice to him, crazy. in addition to that i got to lay with him, and thats the best. we got icecream, chilled and watched some tv. wonderful. i'm .. glad we worked everything out. i'm really really glad ( Read more... )

Matt, you mean so much to me, i'm so glad your still with me. I know most people dont understand things, but you understand me for the most part, and you still want to be with me. You mister.. have made me a better person, minus the grounding.. i wish i could be with you now. school on july 6th sounds like its going to happen. my mom is so mad ( Read more... )

i know one major thing, i care so much about matt it hurts. last night i messed up and last night i got caught messing up and now i get to pay for it,and i ended up breaking up with the person i care about the most. being with him is one of the things that brings me happiness, it brings me comfort it brings me every emotion there is as and i know ( Read more... )

So today for yearbook Paul, Jessie and me had to take the club pictures. Nothing like having over a hundred or so students all in the same area and having me lead them. not happening. jessie was alot of help. paul... lol. well... i'm going to prom with matt. i should tell joel that. i'm glad though. i mean who better than to get all ( Read more... )

Academic banquet my butt. I hate those damn things. Nothing like making my butt hurt for multiple hours for some crappy food that my mom paid $22.50 for and I got a $.99 lanturn of knowledge. So without this lanturn i have no knowledge. did i even spell lanturn right? I wonder if anyone other than me reads these ( Read more... )