i loved my girlfriend so much and still do. i broke up with her today. so i guess i need to be single for a little while. its almost been a year since my dad died. it feels like yesterday. sometimes i really wish i could just get over it....but i never will. i miss my dad and i need him right now. i dont have anybody. i miss my girlfriend ( Read more... )

im going to miss my dad very much...but there are some things i cannot change or control. i wish i could have left on better terms with him and at least said i love you to him while he was not in a coma. fuck this life.

life is pretty much very hard right at this point in time. amber is keeping me alive is all i know. i love her more than anything in this world. she is my everything and will always be.

so ive been in colorado for about four months. the season is up on sunday. its been very eventful out here. a lot of interesting people and things have went down. im going to georgia on monday to visit and stay with two amazing people. the ride never stops. i keep on going. ill come back to indiana one day i promise.

i have nothing left. no friends(here anyways), i dont even know where my parents or nephews are, and my dog. and the most fucked up disgusting thing that has ever happend to me did. so fucked up that is has changed my outlook on people and life as well. amber you and my grandparents are all i have. and i am getting ready to move far away. so ( Read more... )

amber is the best thing that has happened in so long i cant remember.

lets just say that this has been one shit week. this is the second year in a row that i will have to go to a funeral on my birthday.

so i need work really bad. i have 2 interviews this week. i hope they all go well. my life is pretty much in the most dissaray it has ever been in. i live with my grandparents for now untill i can get back on my feet. i miss certain things so much. but its time to make right and get straight for awhile. i guess no matter how much pain it ( Read more... )

its so hard to have a crush on a girl these days. who knows. i am pretty sure i am crushin. i think you need to people to crush for it to work. crush its all good.

this is has come to be, well, frankly a fucked up time. and i swear i am searching. searching for an answer to all this. i jus wish i could...make anybody, anybody understand whats its like. braden is just a name to you. prove it.

"I've been in my mind,

it's such a fine line

That keeps me searching"