the only place i feel safe right now is in a room with no windows, unseen by the outside.

and that is not some literary psycho-babble bullshit, it is meant to be taken at the literal meanning of all words.

I do not understand the depths of my anger. Everyday I am fighting a battle between exploding or keeping everthing tucked neatly into the cracks of my soul. What am I expecting? Everything to go the way it plays out in my head? Life does not work that way ( Read more... )

My favorite hippies are coming to town. I'm so exctied. Now all I need to do is get Shayli here. Then everything will be perfect, atleast for the night. I miss my girls ( Read more... )

I will never be the person any of you think I can be ( Read more... )

Last night was so fun.
Got wasted playin P and A with wine.
I have no memory of coming home.
I was driving.
Hmmm.

I don't remember having such a great night in a long time. Everyone was in a good mood. It was so chill and relaxed. I didn't even wake up with a hang over. Sweet.

I am tired tho. I might stay in tonight. hahaha, who the hell am i

Another one of those "I should be doing homework" journals ( Read more... )

The weekend was good. I didn't go out at all, except staying at Simon's on Friday, but still I was in bed by 11 each night, and probably tonight too. I feel so refreshed. Nothing like 24 hours of sleep in two days. Fabulous ( Read more... )

stressed and tired.

I'm ready for my classes to start making sense.
My Communications in Mathmatics class is a bitch.
History of Democracy is rough too.
Basically, my GVSU courses seem like college compared to my MCC "high school" classes.

I'm sick of my parents.
I need my own house.
It's a good thing they are talking about moving back to Arkansas. How ( Read more... )

Opening up and expressing the things I really want to say to people has been and always will be the hardest thing for me. It has kept me from having real relationships with most people in me life. Granted it saved me some heartbreak and other such emotions, but I become unconsoled by the fact that I've also lost out on knowing a lot of good people ( Read more... )

everything a secret when it comes to me ( Read more... )